Yeah when you have the time to carefully prepare for the inevitable and part of that preparation requires you to be strong for the loved one passing, it can have kind of a numbing effect on the grieving process. I went thru something similar when my mother passed from cancer at age 93. She felt she had lived long enough and she had already outlived all her siblings and spouses as well as many of her friends. So when she was diagnosed with cancer she refused any treatment other then pallatative care and then when the end was near she switched over to hospice care. She discussed her diagnosis and her choice on treatment about a month before her passing with me and my two brothers. That gave us all about a month or so to come to terms with her impending death. As a result we all took it quite stoically at first but then each of us had our own more emoptional experience quietly at a later date. For me it was when I went to make my weekly Sunday call to her to touch base and realized she wasn't there to answer the phone, as I was dialing her out of habit. It will likely come for you at some time in the near future when something reminds you that she is gone. The thing I found most helpful at times like that was to try not to focus on the loss but instead force myself to think of all the happy memories I had.Good Morning peoples
For those who may, in in the future; face the time when needing to help a pet to cross over,
if the situation allows:
I highly suggest an in home euthanasia service.
It's not yet hit me, I'm still numb I suppose.
The experience for her I hope, was that she was safe and loved.
I didn't allow myself to break down for the two days of hospice care
prior to her passing on nor while the service was here.
I refused to have her feeling a sad vibe.
I'm sure it will hit me soon however.
Change = grieving and I'll have to go through the paces to heal.
I didn't post this to cause sadness for others.
Just an update and a PSA for pet lovers.
Now, on to the mundanities of life, sigh.
Like... seeing the doc today for my yearly commitment
to the 'health care system', meh.
Have a good day folks!
- but thought to myself - why not? - could be a fun and enjoyable thing to do - whilst making the kids and wife happy too - 
