I think a little slipup can be a big positive if it motivates you to not let the BS in your mind take you off track again. I had to get pretty pissed off at myself before I could finally quit. In the end I was pissed off at myself for putting myself in the position of being a drunk, injuring myself, acting a fool, and basically ruining and wasting what is left of my only life.
This isn't easy. I am so glad I have weaned myself of the beer. I love beer, but my life is a lot better, and more productive, without it. My health is improving, especially sleep, which may be the key to being healthy and happy. A little monitor ring I wear at night confirms this.
But man, the dope I'm going through now, especially just vaping off the terps and making butter with the ABV. I think the compromise my mind has made with the carbions is trading beer for cookies, which I now munch like snacks.
Man I feel this, because it took me being pissed at myself to make a change in the first place. the last couple days I been gettin a beer since them shots, after hard day of work, and the shit pissin me off again. Then im reminded of the routine “I will quit on a monday” and the fact I brought that up in this thread using that as a means to keep drinking, makes me feel like a dumbass cuz I jus did it again. This last week of drinking a lil bit has non coincidentally been a week off of exercise. Tonight im exercising regardless of the lil ipa i just drank. The lil 9 dollar ipa. The money i was saving. *facepalm
Time to hop back off the wagon... tomorrow...