I never said I was proud to be on welfare man. I said I didn't feel the least bit guilty...there's a big difference.
I'm simply using it as a stepping stone to get where I want to go. Like you, my love is in growing and caring for my plants and reaping the end result. It brings me peace and sanity.
It's not that I'm lazy or just don't like working...it's the fact that I literally start going insane after the first couple of weeks at a new job and I usually end up going into breakdown mode.
I don't know wether it's due to social anxiety or what.
Sometimes I'll just get the feeling I want to run out of the place and fuck off back home. I have issues, I know this.
I've been reduced to sobbing like a little baby because of the thought of spending another day whoring my life out for some other persons business...I'm not proud of that.
I'm just not able to commit to a 9-5 job. I just don't work that way.
I would honestly rather be homeless and go off into the forest to fend for myself than commit my life to a job that I hate...but I'm trying to make sure that doesn't happen.
peace
I'm simply using it as a stepping stone to get where I want to go. Like you, my love is in growing and caring for my plants and reaping the end result. It brings me peace and sanity.
It's not that I'm lazy or just don't like working...it's the fact that I literally start going insane after the first couple of weeks at a new job and I usually end up going into breakdown mode.
I don't know wether it's due to social anxiety or what.
Sometimes I'll just get the feeling I want to run out of the place and fuck off back home. I have issues, I know this.
I've been reduced to sobbing like a little baby because of the thought of spending another day whoring my life out for some other persons business...I'm not proud of that.
I'm just not able to commit to a 9-5 job. I just don't work that way.
I would honestly rather be homeless and go off into the forest to fend for myself than commit my life to a job that I hate...but I'm trying to make sure that doesn't happen.
peace