I did not quit I run up the white flag. It wipped my ass. been sober all most 30 years. seventeen in aa .was scared to death to smoke but working heavy consturtion . either pain pills or medical pot.grew up in sixies been their done that do not like the way they make you fill.
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Quit Alcohol - Support Thread
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hi my name is billy and i am an alcoholic. it has been 2 days since my last drink.....FML
In my book......"Substituting" does not equal "becoming addicted to" or even "it takes care of my underlying problem". It can mean either, but it doesn't necessarily equate as a hard rule.
All choices have consequences. Simple. No need to judge the person, to think that there is a "right " way to exist vs a "wrong" way. Whatever you choose to do has consequences. We are always surrounded by humans at varying stages of learning and will continuously discover that someone is ahead of us on the Path and someone is behind us on the Path.
If we paid attention to the consequences in our lives we would have a much better barometer. Life always gives us messages or signs. Always. Our inner voice has feedback for us and tries to be a conscience or guide. We just don't know how to listen very well......our parents, schools, and friends didn't learn how to live with awareness and pay attention to feedback loops, so we are on our own when it comes to learning and becoming wise in actions.
Said another way: ""Judge only by the results" - Dr. Bronner
Let go of denial and live your Wisdom. When you don't, it's called "going against yourself". Our culture, in this present world of greed, puts denial high on the desireable tool chart. What a tool it is, too, being able to put up with just about any situation by saying "it's alright" or "it doesn't really matter".
Denial reinforces fear because somewhere inside we know that we are kidding ourselves or know that at least we might be. Strong denial doesn't even allow dissent or the thought of feedback. Thus, maxims like "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again" become teachings passed on to us by our elders.
That could read instead:
"If at first you don't succeed, try something different".
Oh yeah....we tend to reward pig-headedness and stubborness instead of flexibility.
So my thought is that the actual underlying problem is our love of denial and failure to listen to feedback from our inner voice, our body, and the Universe. It's not just about substance use.
I still haven't had a drink
I still haven't had a drink
And it's 4:20 time to smoke a joint.
no alcohol for about a year and a half
I still haven't had a drink
And it's 4:20 time to smoke a joint.
no alcohol for about a year and a half
im so done. fucking devil water.
And it's 4:20 time to smoke a joint.
Wow a year and a half. You are a inspiration to others.
Congratulations
The thing with me and beer is, all the yeast/sugar, leads me to have an itchy/dry rectal area
It interferes with my intestines
I heard this might be some candida/gut flora thing. I will go to toilet and its like i havent eaten a lot of fibres, dangerous for over-forcing my behind.
Honestly, for a poor guy like me, beer is too expensive
Its nice to drink some beers after a hard days work but i dont want to make it a habit, i actually cant afford to make it a habit.
For the price of a 12 pack (beer for a day or two, 17,25$) i can get quite a lot of food, id say maybe a couple days worth.
Also, I dunno how you guys have it over in the states, but over here in my part of canada, you cannot buy alcohol/beer after 11 pm. When i was in nyc, i noticed there wasnt a thing like that. What a surprise that was for me.
It interferes with my intestines
I heard this might be some candida/gut flora thing. I will go to toilet and its like i havent eaten a lot of fibres, dangerous for over-forcing my behind.
Honestly, for a poor guy like me, beer is too expensive
Its nice to drink some beers after a hard days work but i dont want to make it a habit, i actually cant afford to make it a habit.
For the price of a 12 pack (beer for a day or two, 17,25$) i can get quite a lot of food, id say maybe a couple days worth.
Also, I dunno how you guys have it over in the states, but over here in my part of canada, you cannot buy alcohol/beer after 11 pm. When i was in nyc, i noticed there wasnt a thing like that. What a surprise that was for me.
I'm glad you have posted here.It is a big step to admit you want a change in your life.Then its another step to say it out loud.
The best of luck,You have our support.
Outstanding work Indalo.You must be proud of your self.
You should be
I have been in Canada alot over the years and on the east coast it seems the liqueur stores are run by the government.
All the newfoundlanders ,PEI'ers and People of Nova-Scotia I know seem to still make moonshine.Because of the cost of booze.
Thanks
Exercise is plane good for every thing including your mental well being. For any one with pain aspirin Advil and neproxin can help.If you have liver problems you may have to find an alternative pain relief.
Exercise can help with the new void in a ex-drinkers life.
You end up with a whole lot of new found time that was dedicated to getting plastered and sleeping it off.
day 3 and no turning back. it astounds me that there is such a substance that can have such an overwhelmingly negative affect on me and it is legal!!! im not going to say i am normal and well adjusted because i have a variety of issues that keep my circle of friends fairly small but i generally walk around with a live and let live, mind my own business type of demeanor. a 6 pack and two hours later and who the fuck is this guy? i am an entirely different, opposite, malicious, hostile total fucking asshole. minus alcohol=average quite lets all get along guy. add alcohol=kill em all and let god sort em out. i just dont understand how something so dark lives inside of me but never appears unless instigated by alcohol. where does the evil hatred live when i dont consume alcohol? saddest fucking part is it is legal and encouraged. i have never done hard drugs but i cant imagine a substance that would make me a worse person than alcohol would. from here on in its " hey bro want a beer"? "no thanks allah forbids it" .
Billy you threw down the gauntlet with that Honest post.
Ok years ago when I was drinking.I was in the work hard play hard part of my life. I would tear it up at work and then drink Captains and coke at night.When I had a drink in my hand I was as sweet as pie.
My life was a blur of getting it done and Drinking.This created a situation with my personality were I was short and rude with those in my way.That means my every day life.My Friends and family started calling me Sadam,In the most loving way.Lol
The drinking and lack of sleep had me treating my life and the people in it like I was Captain Ahab barking orders at all who came in contact with me.This went on for years.
I thought I had the right because I was getting it done in life.
Well next thing I knew was fighting Anxiety.Bad Anxiety.
This caused me to be more of a bastard.
Well one day I was on the phone with my father and I got pistoff and smashed the phone in to pieces with him still on the line.
Well I went from rage to passive when I saw my children in tears.
They simply said we love Grandpa.
I said I do to. Im sorry I was a jerk and I had no right talking to him like that,As I hugged them both.
I was completely sober when this happened and I now know that it was the Night drinking that caused it.I was Ugly and the drinking was ugly.
I quite 13+years ago.This indecent was not the reason I quite it was just one of the many.
Thanks Billy
Ok years ago when I was drinking.I was in the work hard play hard part of my life. I would tear it up at work and then drink Captains and coke at night.When I had a drink in my hand I was as sweet as pie.
My life was a blur of getting it done and Drinking.This created a situation with my personality were I was short and rude with those in my way.That means my every day life.My Friends and family started calling me Sadam,In the most loving way.Lol
The drinking and lack of sleep had me treating my life and the people in it like I was Captain Ahab barking orders at all who came in contact with me.This went on for years.
I thought I had the right because I was getting it done in life.
Well next thing I knew was fighting Anxiety.Bad Anxiety.
This caused me to be more of a bastard.
Well one day I was on the phone with my father and I got pistoff and smashed the phone in to pieces with him still on the line.
Well I went from rage to passive when I saw my children in tears.
They simply said we love Grandpa.
I said I do to. Im sorry I was a jerk and I had no right talking to him like that,As I hugged them both.
I was completely sober when this happened and I now know that it was the Night drinking that caused it.I was Ugly and the drinking was ugly.
I quite 13+years ago.This indecent was not the reason I quite it was just one of the many.
Thanks Billy
I've got stories that don't need to be told..
I've got stories that don't need to be told..
Good Luck Billy
you are on the right track
I've got stories that don't need to be told..
Good Luck Billy
you are on the right track
no thank you ph. it makes a world of difference to know im not alone. i have never before now took the time to recognize what an overall impact this has made on my life. in the past i have always had more control over it i really thought i could manage it. it really bothered me to think of myself as one of those guys that cant enjoy a beer with a buddy on a warm summer afternoon. i now realize that one sip leads to a dozen empties and hell on wheels.
