Thanks @moose eater I can get a spore syringe online for like $10 but I can't do the whole grow where I am. Last time I did mushrooms I just got really relaxed and laughed a lot. Never got really zooted but was intense still. I guess it's not a priority but thought it'd be cool on a boring lonely day. Watching Highlander 4 or some crapIf it were 30 or 40 years ago, you could stand outside in the parking lot or on the sidewalk at a Dead show with a finger raised, or even a small sign on a piece of paper or cardboard, or what ever, and someone would eventually liikely come along and meet your needs/desires in time.
Gone are those days for the most part. But maybe some place out there, at some show, or park, or.... ??, there's still someone able to see your plea, and maybe even just deliver for you for effect... to see your reaction.
I still have an unused spore syringe or 2 in the fridge (haven't lit up my semi-automated aquariums in years now), and a sealed frozen (long term) 1/4-oz. of what were some very good 'John Allen' strain psilocybin in the freezer. But I'm kinda' saving those for a circumstance in analogy to Hunter S. Thompson's final moments in Saigon, when he had a tab of acid taped to the back of his press badge, and the NVA (with armor) were a few miles down the road, with him being one of the last reporters (allegedly) to still be there, and he said, "In case things got erally weird." Or something to that effect.
Hope you find your 'shrooms, Doober. Though the last few times I ate them, a number of years ago, I was up in a tree stand, moose hunting, in the bush, and all 3 trips in a row ended up being self-analysis, introspection, self-confrontation trips, and I gained a different perspective on 'shrooms as a recreational thing. It wasn't all that recreational.
Good luck.