Yeah great experience, but sucks going through it!
Oh YES!!! Dang Timmur that I have severe empathy for you man!!! This can be heart breaking and very stressful if you let it or think about it the wrong way. I'm too critical and want to grow to the max potential of the plant/strain every grow!!!!!!!!!!!
However, it rarely happens. Especially if you don't have hundreds of grows under your belt and also if you are a tester or you like trying to become an expert on more than one style or method.
It's mind blowing how this is a full time job if you let it be!!!!!!
Thankfully it is sooooooo rewarding for me. I hope you can figure out. A way for you to really enjoy "doing this grow WHILE it's happening"!!!!!! Don't be like me!!!!!!!!! Then you won't even enjoy the moment !!!!!!!
I relate growing to nurturing. I want to care for and treat these Cannabis ladies as if I truly care about them because I know how many people benefit from its use. I allow that to mean a lot to me. That way,
When I too upset(lol), at making mistakes or still learning , I can still resort to touching the leaves of the plants and while doing leaf inspections I can try and get into a good mental space that is NOT attached to the outcome.
I heard this from a friend of mine about 10 years ago. I can't remember the details but the way I tell it to myself is, "I try to do things to the best my ability without being attached to the outcome."
I'm only saying all the stuff so that you enjoy the process more than myself, without getting caught up in the stresses of mistakes or the learning curve or the challenges. And the disappointments and losses. !!!!
Anyway I just rambled on thinking about good things. I'll look forward to your replies and I'm sending you good vibes on your grown man