actually .. I hear you loud and clear & really can feel you on this …And to get past that initial shock phase after diagnosis, and the 'hurry up and battle it' phase that follows, and all the time spent wringing hands and worrying about data and numbers you can't really control, because while all of that BS is sucking your energy away, life is happening, and the Zen irony in that is that in those phases, one is forfeiting life for fear of forfeiting life.