Shiva Grows

[zaprjaques]

That stuff really works huh?

worked for me

 

[shiva82]

my behavioural therapy as a kid was detention twice a week , two suspensions, and two expulsions

 

[zaprjaques]

i always have sweaty hands . do you ? i say oily hands haha

nope, just cold, hehe. a good indicator that shit is bad with me. i usually have warm hands, perfect gynecologist conditions, i missed my calling.

 

[goingrey]

worked for me

How long were you in the therapy. It's about 200e an hour so... that can add up to some money.

 

[shiva82]

 

[shiva82]

i can do most things , if given all the time in the world. the moment i have to juggle multiple projects , and timed, or with a time limit .... it all crumbles haha. chess, with no time limit i'm a medium level player.... timed i'm useless

 

[zaprjaques]

How long were you in the therapy. It's about 200e an hour so... that can add up to some money.

wasnt that much back then, i think around half or less. 10 years ago or maybe less i cant remember.
i think i went for a full year, sometimes twice a month, sometimes only once.
i guess it was a bunch of money still, but i was feeling very shitty so...

 

[shiva82]

wasnt that much back then, i think around half or less. 10 years ago or maybe less i cant remember.
i think i went for a full year, sometimes twice a month, sometimes only once.
i guess it was a bunch of money still, but i was feeling very shitty so...

well. you are great member of society and good parent . with or without you turned out well

 

[goingrey]

5k ain't bad to cure GAD

 

[shiva82]

i think some people just care , and then we are controlled by psychopaths that don't care or feel that emotion in any way... and trickle down effect

 

[shiva82]

 

[goingrey]

i think some people just care , and then we are controlled by psychopaths that don't care or feel that emotion in any way... and trickle down effect

The psychopathic lack of empathy can be a good trait for a leader too if directed positively. Sometimes it is and oftentimes it's not.

 

[zaprjaques]

the problem was getting to the core of it,
its not easy to talk about crazy shit in your head with strangers, with anxiety in the back.
if youre an open type person you can tackle the stuff quicker with the help of the terapist. i was beating around the bush for a long time before we got to the nitty gritty, but then it got better quick.

 

[zaprjaques]

i also used to keep shit inside my head too long, not talking to anyone or adressing the bullshit.

 

[goingrey]

The trouble is it's everyone that's bonkers. Mass psychosis. People exhibit all kinds of insane behavior but it's the norm because others do too. So to become normal one needs to go insane. Or pretend. I wonder how many people do that, live a lie where they do shit they think is nonsense just to fit in...

 

[zaprjaques]

not a glorious time for sure, and it changed my relationship with herb.
thats why i'm still pretty cautious with my use.

 

[shiva82]

 

[zaprjaques]

little smokey and then back to work for a bit more for me.

 

[shiva82]

little smokey and then back to work for a bit more for me.

nothing wrong with being sober . i hear you zapr. take it easy

 

[zaprjaques]

ps: really appreciate you guys.