shiva82
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its a shit time of year. everything closed too
i have had intense dreams recently too
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i have had intense dreams recently too
zaprjaques
da boveda kid
i'm really enjoying it though haha
shiva82
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savour it . time to reflect . i do too much of this all year haha
shiva82
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i have to try pick up traction for work again. i have maybe 8 weeks worth of private work available to start with , but i don't know when i can start any of these jobs. so i'm in limbo for a few days every christmas , not earning anything . i just want to start earning again , to survive the next year
zaprjaques
da boveda kid
me too man, thats why i'm enjoying the mental slobbiness, not much reflection going on.
i can handle it all day during the year because i have lots to do.
but it sucks ass when off duty so to speak.
zaprjaques
da boveda kid
i strongly dislike that feeling.
fortunately i have everything laid out waiting for me when i get back so i can just hop in and start doing my thing.
but the cash situation is tight here too, especially around this time of the year, or any time of the year that calls for a week off or so...
shiva82
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i had a nightmare of an abusive to women man that i knew of growing up. he was at the top of my flight of stairs , with two black eyes , he looked like a zonbie, dead but moving. he was abusing me and throwing his foot at me , talking shit to me ,,,, i grabbed his foot as he swung gis leg and hurled him down the stairs and killed him instantly .... fucked up dream . woke up in a sweat with guilt i had killed a man. but it wasnt a man . it was a scumbag. strange. i still felt guilty
zaprjaques
da boveda kid
i had to readjust after having to put one big job that would have earned me quite a bit on hiatus. reached out to others, finding a few smaller scale things to do, not the most pleasant shit, but bills need to be paid.
i'll try not to stress myself too much for once.
first i'm gonna take an entire day to clean and reorganize my workshop next year, then start fresh.
i'll try not to stress myself too much for once.
first i'm gonna take an entire day to clean and reorganize my workshop next year, then start fresh.
zaprjaques
da boveda kid
fuck man i had a similar dream about my wifes ex a few days ago, he showed up at our apartment but i didnt kill him, just messed him up. it was still bothering me after i woke up that i didnt kill the fucker haha
shiva82
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i just take it as it comes now. deal with it in the moment . often every plan made, gets altered and changed anyway . the worst issues are never as bad as they seem, and the easy jobs are never as easy as predicted. live in the moment , try my best. put the effort in and go from there .
