self
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That sounds really familiar. It's kinds out of left field, but have you tried hunting?Because you're crushing it and living life and raising family and posting all over the place?
Thanks for stopping in FF
I believe a lot of struggles we have as part of the human experience are misdirected and misused instincts and genes. Likely ones that don't serve the lifestyles we live in our society.
I am guessing that for me and some of my family it's what is called ADD or HDAD. It's mostly in males.
We were hunter gatherers who used to go on long journeys, hunting, walking, running down animals. The women did more focused jobs like gathering berries.
As we became agrarian sometimes the instincts are suppressed. Some skills to cope with our society as we know it are more difficult to maintain.
The alcohol is self medication for these issues, but just like other items that are a little difficult to obtain in nature ( fat, sugar, carbohydrates) we can easily go overboard in the presence of such bounty.
I'm back on long walks and runs. I'm trying anyway, bring a workaholic doesn't help. I was sober for years and did great things and hiked 1000 miles in a shot.
I just thought I could be like a normal person. Nope.
Thanks Self. Thanks for the self help.
I picked up bowhunting a few years ago and now my time hunting is my favorite time next to working in the garden.
I went out and tried having a few drinks in the spring at a show I was really looking forward to. Blacked out, remember absolutely none of the main act. Sick for the next day and a half. Lucky nothing else happened. I'm hoping that's the last time I need to learn that lesson.
Keep crushing it Hill.