House caught fire

[herbgreen]

Sounds toxic situation

If you have to ask youre probation officer for help

Sounds 'counter-intuitive' but shit like that they love

i think they like communication and if shit hits the fan at least they have an idea of your side of it

plus if worse come to worse you can ask them to get you out of there get in a T-house start over get to work and just move on away from the drama

or tell them you need a 28 day treatment program Get into safe situation

Theres always options work the system to your advantage And you would be doing the right thing

You cant control these peoples behavior youre only responsible for what you do

Give yourself a pep talk and find a way You have to like yourself We can tell you all day long but you have got to figure out what you are telling yourself

Whatever that is its effecting you Anyway, thats what know about myself

I have to tell myself what's up No one can really give me advice...Even if they have all the right answers

As long as you have good relationship with the PO ask for help that way youre covered

Good Vibes and all that keep up the good fight........

 

[shithawk420]

Yes, your right.but I'm o. Felony probation for defending myself.anyway besides the poiint I can go to prison just for jaywalking if they really want.and my dad still drank and smoked all day.we were supposed to do something at my house but nothing but excuses.unless something changes I'm gonna put ninjutsu to work.i don't care anymore.my family has forsaken me.o dont care anymore

 

[shithawk420]

.y friend has stage 4 brain cancer.if I was a real scumbag I would have taken all of it.cause that's what it's there for.to help her die.im not stupid.a and I'm not a prick.i wanted it so bad but I'm not a thief or an addict.taljing about pure morphine.the best of the best.but I know better.im not even gonna.ask
.

 

[AgentPothead]

Hang in there man, it will be okay.

 

[shithawk420]

Damn. These cheap but at least I got 2g of data.dont really know how much that is but at least it's something..I'm not saying nothing here o. Out but let's just say they drew first blood .I've been in the woods jus to like Rambo I'm not crazy or schizo.but I won't lozr either.peoplr have tried .I'm that good.gonna suck if i hAfta bury myself in cold dirt and leaves.im the best.noboxy gonna catch me

 

[Bobby Boucher]

Bro,

I've been refraining from making the suggestion, but get a job. I'm a 31 year old dipshit who just passed up 2k a week because.. well.. I'm injured, and I'd rather be playing my piano.

If you are willing to work yourself sick, start applying for higher paying jobs on craigslist. There are GEMS for young bucks like us. My last craigslist gig I could pull 10-20k a week if I were so inclined.

Have a friend write you out a resume that sounds like you ran your pops roofing biz and throw it around everywhere you can. Out of town, out of state, whatever. Find a higher paying job away from pillville.

And probably best to stay off whatever you've been on. Completely.

 

[shithawk420]

Bro,

I've been refraining from making the suggestion, but get a job. I'm a 31 year old dipshit who just passed up 2k a week because.. well.. I'm injured, and I'd rather be playing my piano.

If you are willing to work yourself sick, start applying for higher paying jobs on craigslist. There are GEMS for young bucks like us. My last craigslist gig I could pull 10-20k a week if I were so inclined.

Have a friend write you out a resume that sounds like you ran your pops roofing biz and throw it around everywhere you can. Out of town, out of state, whatever. Find a higher paying job away from pillville.

And probably best to stay off whatever you've been on. Completely.

I'm 31 too.im an alcoholic.i don't do hard drugs.i want to quit but my dad drinks like I do and smokes 10 joints a day.i fucked up and smoked a week ago.its hard when the house reeks of weed.anyway my dad got drunk and wanted to fight me again.hes a sick narsict.he wants me dead.he tried to kill my mother too .I want to get to rehab but I can't make phone calls.im literally in corn fields and no vehicle.im fucked like chuck.i can't do this anymore.my situation is worse than I been telling

 

[buzzmobile]

Thanks man.i need something for my walls,floor everything.im willing to try anything if it's not too expensive but I don't know if such a thing exists

Vinegar
https://www.maids.com/cleaning-hacks/3-non-toxic-ways-clean-mold-natural-cleaners/

 

[I wood]

I'm 31 too.im an alcoholic.i don't do hard drugs.i want to quit but my dad drinks like I do and smokes 10 joints a day.i fucked up and smoked a week ago.its hard when the house reeks of weed.anyway my dad got drunk and wanted to fight me again.hes a sick narsict.he wants me dead.he tried to kill my mother too .I want to get to rehab but I can't make phone calls.im literally in corn fields and no vehicle.im fucked like chuck.i can't do this anymore.my situation is worse than I been telling

Funnel that anger into something useful, quitting drinking. If for no other reason than to piss off your father. Miserable drunks hate nothing more than having to watch someone else succeed.
My miserable drunk of a father let himself die when i was 17, so i only had a small glimpse of what you deal with.
Just my opinion.

 

[TychoMonolyth]

I'm 31 too.im an alcoholic.i don't do hard drugs.i want to quit but my dad drinks like I do and smokes 10 joints a day.i fucked up and smoked a week ago.its hard when the house reeks of weed.anyway my dad got drunk and wanted to fight me again.hes a sick narsict.he wants me dead.he tried to kill my mother too .I want to get to rehab but I can't make phone calls.im literally in corn fields and no vehicle.im fucked like chuck.i can't do this anymore.my situation is worse than I been telling

Here's the secret to changing your life and circumstances hawk.

Find an AA meeting. It'll piss everyone off. Even your family and friends. But that's the fun part. Go to as many meetings as you can find.

You don't have to do it for the rest of your life. Just today. That's all.

Do that and your life will change on it's own. I promise you.

Fuck the world. Time to fix your shit.

 

[I'mback]

only 10% is abstinence!

 

[Bobby Boucher]

I’ve been fucked like chuck more than once.

The deal is, if you don’t get proper rest and nourishment (food and shelter) you wind up losing your god damn mind, which isn’t a real option. It’s a precious thing to waste. Go SOMEWHERE.

Things are what we make of them. Changing your attitude could be as simple as planning out a functional outfit.

My advice, get all the crazy out TODAY (if you haven’t already) and plan out a functional state of mind for tomorrow. You are capable. You don’t need anything but what you already have, plus a large helping of discipline and fortitude. You need to think your way out and help yourself, but that won’t happen unless you put on your thinking-cap and your big-boy-pants.

Commit your efforts to kindness and civility and people will always be there for you. These shortcomings of yours may prove to be extremely valuable in the long run. If you can identify the qualities of yourself that put you in this predicament, and dissolve them through purposeful practice, you may turn out larger, wiser, kinder, and more careful than you would have ever been otherwise.

Being forced to learn and know oneself in such a short time frame is like having a stroke. Fuckin.. lawnmower man type experience. Critical thinking is a melancholy science. It hurts a little. I like to always carry a little travel size KY bottle because.. truth always seems to make for a tight squeeze.

Just imagine yourself.. laying down in the middle of a busy intersection with an outstretched hand for ... days.. weeks. This is how the world treats people who choose to believe themselves incapable, especially if people actually care about you.

I won’t drag my kid through the store. I’d kick his ass before I ever did that. GTF UP and WALK.

Pick yourself up, shake off the stupid, and watch the whole freakin world will come running to your rescue. People might even buy you some toys to take home.

I don’t mean to sound condescending, but you are hurting yourself, and it’s needless.

Maintaining a positive mindset is worth it ALL the time, even if only for the sake of appearing as an adult.

 

[Gypsy Nirvana]

Excellent post Bob - some darn good advice there - and I fully concur -

 

[shithawk420]

Your right Gypsy.that was a damn good post Bobby and your absolutely right.im sorry guys.you guys are great.im a no good coward.i know this.everyone I know is dead or dying.my best friend and the love of my life is in prison.im lucky I didn't go to prison with her.she stopped writing back.maybe it's for the best but she broke my heart.i didn't even know I was capable of love.we literally pulled a Bonnie and Clyde.minus a bank robbery.we were ready to die that day.almost hit a cop car head on.after that my house caught fire and I've been a mess since.i need to rise like a phoenix and be roborn.this isn't working.im not the liquor.

 

[Bobby Boucher]

This sounds really all too familiar man.

There’s a time to grieve. If you insist on grieving now, do so purposefully. Get it out.

When shit hit the fan for me, the better half of my family had all passed away within months, weeks, sometimes days between each other. Things thing happen is 3’s. Sometimes 6’s and 9’s.

They couldn’t identify my favorite uncle until the cranial swelling went down after a hit and run. My saint grandmother died 3 days later stroking out in grief. Gpa went the next week. Then went my cat, then went my ex’s 7 month pregnancy, then she started blowing anything that moved, then the irs took the house and I was left out in the street.

I spent a lot of time drifting in SD. That’s where I learned that people will just chuck money at you if you pretend to live with purpose and drive.

Put up on million dollar properties, 30k dollar sofas. Up into beautiful treehouses and into sacred private personal retreats. I had people coming and goin, hitchin and towin. Needlessly paying out thousands a night when I would have worked for room and board.

Just don’t ever pretend that you are a victim to any of these circumstances. You do what you want to do.

 

[shithawk420]

This sounds really all too familiar man.

There’s a time to grieve. If you insist on grieving now, do so purposefully. Get it out.

When shit hit the fan for me, the better half of my family had all passed away within months, weeks, sometimes days between each other. Things thing happen is 3’s. Sometimes 6’s and 9’s.

They couldn’t identify my favorite uncle until the cranial swelling went down after a hit and run. My saint grandmother died 3 days later stroking out in grief. Gpa went the next week. Then went my cat, then went my ex’s 7 month pregnancy, then she started blowing anything that moved, then the irs took the house and I was left out in the street.

I spent a lot of time drifting in SD. That’s where I learned that people will just chuck money at you if you pretend to live with purpose and drive.

Put up on million dollar properties, 30k dollar sofas. Up into beautiful treehouses and into sacred private personal retreats. I had people coming and goin, hitchin and towin. Needlessly paying out thousands a night when I would have worked for room and board.

Just don’t ever pretend that you are a victim to any of these circumstances. You do what you want to do.

I'm sorry to hear that.i lost my godfather and 2 of my best friend's this year.my friends wife is gonna die any day now.hes freaking out cause when she dies they are gonna auction out the property.he don't really have a place to go.i told him he can stay with me if he helps fix my house.great guy.i feel bad for him.hes got my uncle's female horses.i don't know how that's gonna turn out.i wish I could help people but I don't know how to help myself.your pretty smart for your age.im impressed.thanks for your insight.and that goes for the rest of you guys.i really do appreciate you guys

 

[CosmicGiggle]

God damnit.i don't have the patience for your shit Redberry.go fuck yourself

So ..... how did ya know it was Redberry????

 

[shithawk420]

So ..... how did ya know it was Redberry????

It's his MO.guy shows up like clockwork.hez a shitpuppet

 

[TychoMonolyth]

So ..... how did ya know it was Redberry????

I always thought it was jrelax. Lol

 

[I'mback]

I’ve been fucked like chuck more than once.

The deal is, if you don’t get proper rest and nourishment (food and shelter) you wind up losing your god damn mind, which isn’t a real option. It’s a precious thing to waste. Go SOMEWHERE.

Things are what we make of them. Changing your attitude could be as simple as planning out a functional outfit.

My advice, get all the crazy out TODAY (if you haven’t already) and plan out a functional state of mind for tomorrow. You are capable. You don’t need anything but what you already have, plus a large helping of discipline and fortitude. You need to think your way out and help yourself, but that won’t happen unless you put on your thinking-cap and your big-boy-pants.

Commit your efforts to kindness and civility and people will always be there for you. These shortcomings of yours may prove to be extremely valuable in the long run. If you can identify the qualities of yourself that put you in this predicament, and dissolve them through purposeful practice, you may turn out larger, wiser, kinder, and more careful than you would have ever been otherwise.

Being forced to learn and know oneself in such a short time frame is like having a stroke. Fuckin.. lawnmower man type experience. Critical thinking is a melancholy science. It hurts a little. I like to always carry a little travel size KY bottle because.. truth always seems to make for a tight squeeze.

Just imagine yourself.. laying down in the middle of a busy intersection with an outstretched hand for ... days.. weeks. This is how the world treats people who choose to believe themselves incapable, especially if people actually care about you.

I won’t drag my kid through the store. I’d kick his ass before I ever did that. GTF UP and WALK.

Pick yourself up, shake off the stupid, and watch the whole freakin world will come running to your rescue. People might even buy you some toys to take home.

I don’t mean to sound condescending, but you are hurting yourself, and it’s needless.

Maintaining a positive mindset is worth it ALL the time, even if only for the sake of appearing as an adult.

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