Just don't ever drink against the grain! You have to drink with the grain.
lolll, for me the best way to deal with it is to make light. i try to keep myself away from the disabled mind set. having an 18 month old daughter to chase and wrangle has helped alot.
thank you very much fellas for the encouraging words. being a part of this community is a huge source of strength, motivation, and inspiration for me.
ill also share this here because its incredibly crucial information, and statistically we ALL know a person with an opiate problem...
when i overdosed i had been using iv heroin for 9 years. the amount of heroin that killed me was .05 grams. thats a half of a typical dose. 5-20$ worth depending. it wasnt very good dope either, i had been buying from the same batch all week. it was kinda tan grey in color, common in the south. dope that isnt black/brown tar is very commonly cut with chinese fentanyl and mixed in unevenly. this creates "hot pockets" of pure fentanyl. for those of you that dont know, fentanyl is incredibly strong. even cheap imported bulk chinese fentanyl is almost unimaginably strong when injected. . it is measured in micrograms, and a high level trans-dermal dose would be 100 micrograms an hour. .05 grams is 50,000 micrograms. let that sink in...
now thats not to say i shot 50,000 mcg of pure fentanyl, but imagine the potential for error when mixing this shit. then imagine the person thats mixing it. then imagine the cousin, nephew, sister, father, ect ect that you know to be at risk for opiate abuse... the average user is still unaware of these issues in most parts of the usa.
all im saying is, please try to find a way to bring this up. most users will understand a harm reduction mentality... so your presenting it like "im not telling you to stop, (even though you need to) but please be careful for this reason" unfortunately there is no shortage of news stories about bad batches of "heroin" wiping out dozens of users in a single town in a 48 hr period. so maybe you happen to read a story like that in the news, and bring it up casually.
i just want to point out that this (opiate abuse) is a fucking epidemic we all need to be aware of, and the new dangers of heroin use are growing exponentially. please talk to your friends and family about this. even if they dont have a problem, i promise you they know someone who does.
im actually starting a liquor church. first united liquorian..
yeah man its the same ogchem x cj i yanked out of that pack from people under the stairs. shes a stable queen in these parts. yall know i like to worry ab stuff... im a little less worried this time around. things should continue to improve, plants are looking healthy despite high temps. nailed up the bed where it had dropped down, did another round of gnatrol with the water tonight... gotta get more yellow cards too. raised the lights over the two huge glue mothers i have... i really need to take a round of cuts off them. they were growing into the t5s, had to prune half a dozen would be viable cuts. so i need a 14-20 day break after this run to dry in the room and then do some rebuilding. that means i need to bide my time a little more before i take cuts from the glue, dont want another overvegged batch of twiggy alien bastards in the dead of summer. and i want the second run in the new bed to be blue dream, shes vegging along nicely. by the time im ready to take those cuts ill probably have to redo some moms...
got caught up on archer and better call saul tonight. im digging dreamland... speaking of...