LeoNardoDaVinci
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Thank you PTD for taking the time to reply with knowledge and facts to weed out the slander. But I did feel a bit attacked there and even hated for just having some questions. You know me PTD you know all I am on a quest for is the truth and knowledge and wisdom, I in NO way said I believed that stuff I was looking to YOU guys to be my guides, people I trust and consider brother’s to give me their opinions that would mirror the ones in my heart. The problem my brothers, is that I d/led “The Teaching Company- Buddhism” by Professor Malcom David Eckel which contains 24, 30 minute lectures. I listened to the first 4 today on my Delivery routes. I have come to think that my path doesn’t end with the SGI but the chanting will be a tool for me on my path. I see that my path takes me to Bodhi(taken from wikipedia cuz I don’t want to rewrite my explanation of Bodhi).
- Bodhi (Pāli and Sanskrit बॊधि, lit. awakening) is a title given in Buddhism to the specific awakening experience attained by the Buddha. After attainment of Bodhi, it is believed one is freed from the cycle of saṃsāra: birth, suffering, death and rebirth. Bodhi is attained only by the accomplishment of the pāramitās (perfections), when the Four Noble Truths are fully grasped, and when all karma has reached cessation. At this moment, all greed (lobha), hatred (Pali doṣa, delusion (moha), ignorance (Sanskrit avidyā, Pāli avijjā), craving (Sanskrit त्र्श्ण, [[tṛṣṇā]], Pāli taṇhā) and belief in that which is not the self (anātmān, Pāli anāttā) are extinguished(everything is me and I am everything, everyone is me and I am everyone…I already know this and have seen it in my visions too bad it scares me, but that means there is only the self because there is no seperation… -that’s me talking there not wikipedia ). Bodhi thus implies understanding of anātman (Pāli anatta), the absence of ego-centeredness. All schools of Buddhism recognise three types of Bodhi. They are Śrāvakabodhi (Pāli: Sāvakabodhi), Pratyekabodhi (Pāli: Paccekabodhi) and Samyaksambodhi (Pāli: Sammāsambodhi), the perfect enlightenment by which a Bodhisattva becomes a fully enlightened Buddha. The aspiration to attain the state of samyaksambodhi, known as the Bodhisattva ideal, is considered as the highest ideal of Buddhism.)
I have seen the cycle of samsara and I have lived a million, million years upon years just as all of you have and I now feel like the aesthetic wandering monks of tibet. What is the point of this samsara, the point of this “all is suffering” (all is impermanent so any attachment to the impermanent ie this world, yourself, your belongings, your family is suffering) So they say you can remove yourself from this cycle by stopping the flow of karma(SGI is about changing, manipulating karma, to your and the rest of mankinds benefit(which is great) and also to be reborn into a better more possitive life, well I don’t want to be reborn what is the point if you can’t remember the past lives…its some sick prison). How do you stop the flow of karma? According to what I heard you become an aesthetic monk(a beggar) But doesn’t Buddhism teach that all actions create karma even your thoughts, words, movements. Doesn’t begging cause karma etc? How can you cease to act?! Anyways I realize that I have almost attained Bodhi 10+ times…in this life that I remember. Everytime I am attached to this damn self and this damn illusion because it is all I know so I pull back and I do not get to see the true nature of reality as Shakyamuni did. Why am I so afraid though!? Shakyamuni did it and he came back to help others! I must chant for strength on my path to Bodhi and this is all I must chant for besides maybe a way to India to start my path there as an aesthetic monk. I cannot chant for material things like I have seen some people do and suggest. I saw a 40+ year old asian buddhist at my meeting with a grill for one…which turned me off a bit as I see that be no where near the middle path. Also my district leader said and I quote “you can chant for anything, even negative things, and get results” That was scary…to think a select few may be chanting for bad things but I guess that is true of everything and all forms of life and habits so I must not focus on it. I am awakening as I write it seems. Anyways sorry to be all over the place guys but I had a much better flowing thing written but when I pressed post it said “back in a few minutes” Haha 6 devils don’t want me talking, and don’t want me awakening just like they didn’t want Shakyamuni to, but I have the tool of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo in my corner and they will not stop me. I have seen my karma in a physical form I have seen it like a spinning roladex ever changing dependant on me. I have seen these as visions on the way from the 7th consciousness to the 8th everytime I get a little more of the true nature of reality but I always pull back denying myself Bodhi and prolonging my samsara. You can all say what you will and most will not believe me to have correctly understood what has been happening to me and think me mad but I am not and I know what I am. What do you think brothers? We are all still brothers, like what I have to say or not…I just think I may be more leaning towards Tibetan Buddhism I lived many past lives in India…I am sure… I just really REALLY need to continue my study before I fully tackle my complete awakening. 4 lectures down, 20 to go(I am gonna listen to them over and over till they are engrained in my mind).
- Bodhi (Pāli and Sanskrit बॊधि, lit. awakening) is a title given in Buddhism to the specific awakening experience attained by the Buddha. After attainment of Bodhi, it is believed one is freed from the cycle of saṃsāra: birth, suffering, death and rebirth. Bodhi is attained only by the accomplishment of the pāramitās (perfections), when the Four Noble Truths are fully grasped, and when all karma has reached cessation. At this moment, all greed (lobha), hatred (Pali doṣa, delusion (moha), ignorance (Sanskrit avidyā, Pāli avijjā), craving (Sanskrit त्र्श्ण, [[tṛṣṇā]], Pāli taṇhā) and belief in that which is not the self (anātmān, Pāli anāttā) are extinguished(everything is me and I am everything, everyone is me and I am everyone…I already know this and have seen it in my visions too bad it scares me, but that means there is only the self because there is no seperation… -that’s me talking there not wikipedia ). Bodhi thus implies understanding of anātman (Pāli anatta), the absence of ego-centeredness. All schools of Buddhism recognise three types of Bodhi. They are Śrāvakabodhi (Pāli: Sāvakabodhi), Pratyekabodhi (Pāli: Paccekabodhi) and Samyaksambodhi (Pāli: Sammāsambodhi), the perfect enlightenment by which a Bodhisattva becomes a fully enlightened Buddha. The aspiration to attain the state of samyaksambodhi, known as the Bodhisattva ideal, is considered as the highest ideal of Buddhism.)
I have seen the cycle of samsara and I have lived a million, million years upon years just as all of you have and I now feel like the aesthetic wandering monks of tibet. What is the point of this samsara, the point of this “all is suffering” (all is impermanent so any attachment to the impermanent ie this world, yourself, your belongings, your family is suffering) So they say you can remove yourself from this cycle by stopping the flow of karma(SGI is about changing, manipulating karma, to your and the rest of mankinds benefit(which is great) and also to be reborn into a better more possitive life, well I don’t want to be reborn what is the point if you can’t remember the past lives…its some sick prison). How do you stop the flow of karma? According to what I heard you become an aesthetic monk(a beggar) But doesn’t Buddhism teach that all actions create karma even your thoughts, words, movements. Doesn’t begging cause karma etc? How can you cease to act?! Anyways I realize that I have almost attained Bodhi 10+ times…in this life that I remember. Everytime I am attached to this damn self and this damn illusion because it is all I know so I pull back and I do not get to see the true nature of reality as Shakyamuni did. Why am I so afraid though!? Shakyamuni did it and he came back to help others! I must chant for strength on my path to Bodhi and this is all I must chant for besides maybe a way to India to start my path there as an aesthetic monk. I cannot chant for material things like I have seen some people do and suggest. I saw a 40+ year old asian buddhist at my meeting with a grill for one…which turned me off a bit as I see that be no where near the middle path. Also my district leader said and I quote “you can chant for anything, even negative things, and get results” That was scary…to think a select few may be chanting for bad things but I guess that is true of everything and all forms of life and habits so I must not focus on it. I am awakening as I write it seems. Anyways sorry to be all over the place guys but I had a much better flowing thing written but when I pressed post it said “back in a few minutes” Haha 6 devils don’t want me talking, and don’t want me awakening just like they didn’t want Shakyamuni to, but I have the tool of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo in my corner and they will not stop me. I have seen my karma in a physical form I have seen it like a spinning roladex ever changing dependant on me. I have seen these as visions on the way from the 7th consciousness to the 8th everytime I get a little more of the true nature of reality but I always pull back denying myself Bodhi and prolonging my samsara. You can all say what you will and most will not believe me to have correctly understood what has been happening to me and think me mad but I am not and I know what I am. What do you think brothers? We are all still brothers, like what I have to say or not…I just think I may be more leaning towards Tibetan Buddhism I lived many past lives in India…I am sure… I just really REALLY need to continue my study before I fully tackle my complete awakening. 4 lectures down, 20 to go(I am gonna listen to them over and over till they are engrained in my mind).