Welcome to the PTSD forum.

[40degsouth]

Gogin Diddle,
PTSD is just a label for a large number of trauma related health issues that are only just beginning to be understood and properly researched; for example concussion and percussion related brain injury. Everyone’s experience is different and ten people observing the same incident will have ten different emotional responses and ten people dealing with the exact same situation will have ten different coping mechanisms in place.
It doesn’t make us weak to present vulnerabilities or to discuss our weaknesses with trusted friends or health care professionals.

 

[przcvctm]

^^^ I hold it together and act happy so that I'm not a drag to those I care about. I'm not sure how things would be any better but I'm dying to have someone I care about really understand just how hard it is to just be awake sometimes.

 

[Creeperpark]

The only time PTSD is a bad problem is when the person that "has it" doesn't do anything for themselves. When I get locked up in a victim state of mind, I always fall into suffering and hurt myself and others.. Liston friends, having an Improvized Explosive Device go off under my feet is something I can't change today. However, I can change the way I deal with my handicap today and work with reality as it is, with a lot of practice. I keep fucking up but that's the teacher showing me where I need to work more. It's so hard at times, and crying from the "pour me" mind state doesn't help get me to the store. It's best if I deal with my own handicaps with precision marksmanship and work hard on my bad attitudes that hurt me and others. Hey, it's nobody's fault, I got to make my own peace for me and those around me and that takes a lot of work. . .

 

[przcvctm]

Glad I shared. Feel better already. /s

 

[Creeperpark]

Thank God for WEED.

 

[40degsouth]

Just had my two dogs run away.......but then because of my community and sheer good luck......got them back.
Anxiety level off the charts but remains calm on the surface.....know what l mean

 

[exoticrobotic]

Wishing all sentient beings relief from pain and suffering.

 

[40degsouth]

Hey,
thanks exoticrobotic,
it’s just so nice to know someone’s out there in the ether of the interweb with pure intentions

 

[TheUnknownGrowe]

im glad you brought up the 'p' word weird. does anyone have personal experience treating ptsd with psychedelics? i am strongly considering a heroic dose of psilocybin but im terrified to do so without a caretaker.

Billy
i haven’t read through the thread yet, but while heroic doses apparently work, I’m not a big fan of the length of the experience. I prefer DMT, 7 minutes of that realm is enough, and the experience is something every human should experience at some point.
No withdrawal, no urge to use substances after, no stress, and it seems like the flood of brain chemicals leaves your senses somewhat heightened.
Hope you still check this thread, the pandemic has been hard for all, but especially for some, it’s been excruciating….

 

[Creeperpark]

40degreesouth, I know what you mean man, So glad you got your best buddies back. They look like they are glad to be home and resting well. Watch out because it could happen again, friend.

 

[przcvctm]

Just thought I'd post up my recent experience with micro-dosing p. cubensis for the first time. Generally, stress and anxiety are agony in and of themselves. Once triggered, I then cascade me into an awful depression. Micro-dosing is a miracle for me as far for treating the depression. I had hopes that it would tame my stress reaction but no such luck. Still, It's so amazing for depression that I've introduced spores to grain bags for the first time.

 

[Creeperpark]

I wished I could give that a try because sometimes if so fucking hard just to be alive. By the time that stuff makes it to the everyday market, I will be gone. Unless the Veteran approves the therapy I am out of luck getting any of that stuff for medicine. I can't go out of state.

 

[RobFromTX]

I know in my experience the effect changed drastically. First time was just a small amount of golden teacher and the effect was superb. almost like the first time you ever catch a buzz. Second time was tea made with about the same amount, which sent me into tailspin of anxiety. I mean were talking 3 hours of sweating and shaky hands. But after that it was followed by 3 or 4 hours of the most euphoric and hilarious experience ive ever had. fits of laughter. Slobbering and crushing cigerettes before i could light them. Im glad its having a great effect on depression but that definitely must be subjective. I know ill only microdose the next time around because thats a rabbit hole i just dont want to go down again

 

[40degsouth]

Hey everyone, l hope you’re all well.
Just wanted to pop in and say “be nice to everyone, you don’t know what they’re going through”.
Really hope you’re life’s ok Going Diddle and Creeperpark.
We should probably make an effort to make this thread something special

 

[Creeperpark]

I think I get more out of K9 compassion than medicine. In other words, I feel better hanging around with my best friends than taking medicine.

 

[40degsouth]

Hey, just popped in to see how things were going and wow, poor old Tinki’s dead now.
Everyone expects you to be sad when a loved one passes but I’m always overjoyed; I’ve got a very different way of seeing death.
A celebration of life is a much better way to honour a life than to mourn it. People think I’m the hardest man on the planet but I’ll laugh at your funeral and tell everyone about the time you shat your pants.
40

 

[CharlesU Farley]

The only time PTSD is a bad problem is when the person that "has it" doesn't do anything for themselves. When I get locked up in a victim state of mind, I always fall into suffering and hurt myself and others.. Liston friends, having an Improvized Explosive Device go off under my feet is something I can't change today. However, I can change the way I deal with my handicap today and work with reality as it is, with a lot of practice. I keep fucking up but that's the teacher showing me where I need to work more. It's so hard at times, and crying from the "pour me" mind state doesn't help get me to the store. It's best if I deal with my own handicaps with precision marksmanship and work hard on my bad attitudes that hurt me and others. Hey, it's nobody's fault, I got to make my own peace for me and those around me and that takes a lot of work. . .

Just stumbled on this thread... _much_ respect for that post!

 

[moose eater]

Just thought I'd post up my recent experience with micro-dosing p. cubensis for the first time. Generally, stress and anxiety are agony in and of themselves. Once triggered, I then cascade me into an awful depression. Micro-dosing is a miracle for me as far for treating the depression. I had hopes that it would tame my stress reaction but no such luck. Still, It's so amazing for depression that I've introduced spores to grain bags for the first time.

I did about 150mcg or so of a tab of a 400mcg gelatin LSD a while back, and it methodically helped to put the grief and sadness re. my younger son's current status to rest fairly firmly. Unfortunately, it was somewhat shorter lived than I would've liked. I would've liked 'permanent' and what I got was weeks to months. Take what's there, I guess, is the message I got.

 

[Creeperpark]

There are universal laws that demand our respect and unfortunately can't be changed. I will suffer if I don't respect the laws and live with this true reality. The more the resentence and non-compliance the more the suffering. Our suffering comes from not accepting the way it is in the present moment. I'm responsible for my own suffering and mind states, and not the world.
Some common universal laws-

• The Law of Divine Oneness.
• The Law of Vibration.
• The Law of Attraction.
• The Law of Correspondence.
• The Law of Action.
• The Law of Cause and Effect.
• The Law of Compensation.
• The Law of Perpetual Transmutation of Energy.

“Understanding the universal laws shows us how to master life on all levels and gives us insights into what we can do to reach our goals. One of the most important laws is the Law of Cause and Effect. Whatever is born is subject to old age, illness, and death. That is just the way it is and everyone has to comply with this law. Every person will be separated from what is loved sooner or later due to the law of impermanence. Knowing this can help me prepare for those times when they appear in my life. Practice living in reality by accepting the truths, that can't be changed. The more resistance and non-acceptance the more pain and suffering.

The problem with micro-dosing is the acid always wears off and one returns back to reality. Taking acid doesn't change the problem it only changes the way you look at it from distraction. The problem is still there but you are distracted and not looking at it in the same way you were before the acid. Unfortunately, micro-dosing is a temporary fix and never lasts but makes a very important fact. It changes the way you think but not the underlying problem you have to face. Acceptance is the key to all my problems in the present moment and not running away.

 

[przcvctm]

In my past, when I'd experience severe, acute fight or flight, my mind would go blank. I would mentally freeze and couldn't figure out what to do next. Now when I experience stress, even mild to moderate stress my mind goes blank just as it did decades ago when situations were dangerous.

I'm curious to know if anyone else experiences this?

This is all I want to know. Before responding, know that if your contribution is that this is a sign of the beginnings of something more serious, stop. DON'T TYPE. Having something to obsessively worry about could put me over the edge. Thanks.