Man.
I cannot wait to be in a place where I can set-up my own thing and get back to gardening. It is going to be a couple of years away but today I got motivated to step on the gas- maybe a second job is in order (at 43 years old). Debt is what is keeping me put for the time being. I have a ball-and-chain of a student loan (37,000 left on 100,000- its getting there) and a car loan for a sports car that I got right at the beginning of a mid-life crisis- haha...The student loan is what it is but the car most likely needs to go so I can get my ass to a state where I can be free. Pronto.
So, I picked up my first bag in 15 years, today, and it was a real let-down. The smell of it is great but zero visible trikes and two bills for a half that looks and feels like a quarter. Fml as the kids say. haha...Since I have been out of it for so long I have not made new contacts and this came along, so...you know. I had that oh-so-familiar feeling of 'well, I hope the next one will be better' and 'maybe I should give who's-his-face a ring'. Reliance on anyone else other than myself and the unpredictability of quality made me take up gardening in the first place and I cannot wait to get back there. I miss it so, so much and today reinforced that even further.
Thanks for listening to me rant.
I cannot wait to be in a place where I can set-up my own thing and get back to gardening. It is going to be a couple of years away but today I got motivated to step on the gas- maybe a second job is in order (at 43 years old). Debt is what is keeping me put for the time being. I have a ball-and-chain of a student loan (37,000 left on 100,000- its getting there) and a car loan for a sports car that I got right at the beginning of a mid-life crisis- haha...The student loan is what it is but the car most likely needs to go so I can get my ass to a state where I can be free. Pronto.
So, I picked up my first bag in 15 years, today, and it was a real let-down. The smell of it is great but zero visible trikes and two bills for a half that looks and feels like a quarter. Fml as the kids say. haha...Since I have been out of it for so long I have not made new contacts and this came along, so...you know. I had that oh-so-familiar feeling of 'well, I hope the next one will be better' and 'maybe I should give who's-his-face a ring'. Reliance on anyone else other than myself and the unpredictability of quality made me take up gardening in the first place and I cannot wait to get back there. I miss it so, so much and today reinforced that even further.
Thanks for listening to me rant.