rock steady here. "i dont ever wanna feel like i did that day" <you know, day after.
Nah... But i did get locked up for 3 months, that had me sober for a few months after. Whenever i see AA meetings on TV it makes me want to drink for some reason.
I dont mind the battle too much, I think im pretty close to a full blown quit cuz my body is really starting to feel it and i would like to live a bit longer for my kids.
I went to many AA (NA meetings too) meetings when I was trying to quit cocaine, all I saw was a bunch of hypocrites around me, chuffing their cigarettes, downing coffee and inhaling donuts; they were trading one vice for several, I fucking hated those meetings.
I stopped using cocaine was I was damned good n' ready, did it on my own cold turkey when I decided that I wasn't going to wake up feeling like I did after every typical night of using which was every night. Same thing with drinking, hated the hangover and just stopped, although I still use a bit of liqueur in my espresso occasionally & strictly for some flavor, the last 2 bottles I bought (Galliano & Grand Marnier) are each about half empty and both over 2 years old by now.
I found the strength inside myself to stop, and now the same thing with weed. My oxygen absorption was getting dangerously low, and after toking or vaping I would feel dizzy and badly out of breath, so I quit cold turkey again for my 3rd and favorite substance, that was nearly 5 months ago. The 1st day was sort of tough, I felt anxious to the point of getting tearful (yup I cried about it) and then from the 2nd day on it was a walk in the park, so much for cannabis being addictive. I'd been toking steady for over 40 years, fuck it! I felt it was either cutting my life short or living longer making options available in my future.
Now I've got my doctor enrolling me in the Minnesota mmj program, I'm sure to find some middle ground there.......
I went to many AA (NA meetings too) meetings when I was trying to quit cocaine, all I saw was a bunch of hypocrites around me, chuffing their cigarettes, downing coffee and inhaling donuts; they were trading one vice for several, I fucking hated those meetings.
I stopped using cocaine was I was damned good n' ready, did it on my own cold turkey when I decided that I wasn't going to wake up feeling like I did after every typical night of using which was every night. Same thing with drinking, hated the hangover and just stopped, although I still use a bit of liqueur in my espresso occasionally & strictly for some flavor, the last 2 bottles I bought (Galliano & Grand Marnier) are each about half empty and both over 2 years old by now.
I found the strength inside myself to stop, and now the same thing with weed. My oxygen absorption was getting dangerously low, and after toking or vaping I would feel dizzy and badly out of breath, so I quit cold turkey again for my 3rd and favorite substance, that was nearly 5 months ago. The 1st day was sort of tough, I felt anxious to the point of getting tearful (yup I cried about it) and then from the 2nd day on it was a walk in the park, so much for cannabis being addictive. I'd been toking steady for over 40 years, fuck it! I felt it was either cutting my life short or living longer making options available in my future.
Now I've got my doctor enrolling me in the Minnesota mmj program, I'm sure to find some middle ground there.......
I went to many AA (NA meetings too) meetings when I was trying to quit cocaine, all I saw was a bunch of hypocrites around me, chuffing their cigarettes, downing coffee and inhaling donuts; they were trading one vice for several, I fucking hated those meetings.
I stopped using cocaine when I was damned good n' ready, did it on my own cold turkey when I decided that I wasn't going to wake up feeling like I did after every typical night of using which was every night. Same thing with drinking, hated the hangover and just stopped, although I still use a bit of liqueur in my espresso occasionally & strictly for some flavor, the last 2 bottles I bought (Galliano & Grand Marnier) are each about half empty and both over 2 years old by now.
I found the strength inside myself to stop, and now the same thing with weed. My oxygen absorption was getting dangerously low, and after toking or vaping I would feel dizzy and badly out of breath, so I quit cold turkey again for my 3rd and favorite substance, that was nearly 5 months ago. The 1st day was sort of tough, I felt anxious to the point of getting tearful (yup I cried about it) and then from the 2nd day on it was a walk in the park, so much for cannabis being addictive. I'd been toking steady for over 40 years, fuck it! I felt it was either cutting my life short or living longer making options available in my future.
Now I've got my doctor enrolling me in the Minnesota mmj program, I'm sure to find some middle ground there.......
. I don't ever want to quit completely. I just don't want to let it get out of control again.
my original plan was to stop in the end zone on new years day and have a couple beers if i made it that far, then start heading back down the field. now that i'm close i'm wondering how smart rewarding myself with something that i know is poison really is. i'm 99.98 % sure i can do it without any problems whatsoever ....... but that 0.02% is really fucking with my head ATM.
mr. john barleycorn is an evil fuck ! the thought of opening the door to him again scares the shit out of me ........ there i admitted it
good luck out there everyone !!!! hold the line and take pride in being a quitter!