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Hope all is well HG. Always sending lots of energy to you.
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Please Pray For Me
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Mr. Mountain
Do it!
You may regret it five minutes later... But you will put yourself on the road to LIVING AGAIN
Life is worth it! You deserve to be happy!
Mr. M
Try this breathing exercise a minimum of 4xs a day: if possible sit someplace quiet, loosen your pants so you can breath easily. Close your eyes and focus on your breathing.
Each step is a slow 4 count.
Inhale and say/think- light/love, hold it and take a 4 count
long slow exhale and say/think love/light
Each step is a slow 4 count.
Inhale and say/think- light/love, hold it and take a 4 count
long slow exhale and say/think love/light
I know what UR goin` thru.
Been 25 years long on heroine.
3 times inna stationary rehab(32 month)&7 years on methadone.
For now is fine, but i understand U and feel this kind of a hardest times in life IMO.
Smoke weed, Man, like i do and it will help U.
stay strong
grtz
Chilum from Poland
Been 25 years long on heroine.
3 times inna stationary rehab(32 month)&7 years on methadone.
For now is fine, but i understand U and feel this kind of a hardest times in life IMO.
Smoke weed, Man, like i do and it will help U.
stay strong
grtz
Chilum from Poland
Cannanatic
Member
Hey HG...hope you kill the devil.....I wish you everything best....
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Mr. Mountain
How's it my brother! Hope all is well.
Stay strong.
Mr. M
Stay strong.
Mr. M
Damn created this over several years ago while being strung out at seventeen and now this year I'll be turning twenty five.
Below will be a little history of herbglaze.
Below will be a little history of herbglaze.
Ive was always a little adrenaline junkie from day one. By age four I'd have two sets of stitches due to me seeking a thrill. Got into skateboarding around age ten.. my role models were my father (he's my best friend) and kids older then me. Of course I got into pot at age twelve. Finally "okay", my anxiety and insecurities were finally at bay. Smoked ciggies and drank like a fish. Women really were always my downfall. Lost my "v card"
at age thirteen. Slept around a lot and considered this a right of passage. (looking back at my age today that's absolutely insane!) Eventually tried opiates, two vicodin down the hatch and started chasing that "NOD". Literally felt the presence of God all through my body. Had I arrived? Reborn! I Started stealing oxycodone from my father. Smoking them off foil provided a quick high and snorting them literally all floored me. On my seventeenth birthday I acquired a needle and 4mg of Hydromorphone (DILAUDID), i remember when I finally found a vein. Pushed down into vast feeling of floating around in a dreamy like state between consciousness and nodding into unconsciousness. Was lost after this, I started shooting everything water soluble. Methamphetamine was my demise. Made me turn into a bipolar psychopath. Violent and broken, running on nothing but pure emotion and a head full of the fear that my sanity was forever gone.
I've overdosed from opiates multiple times, hospitalized for drug induced psychosis overs dozen times, been to jail several times, put on probation... had to do mouth to mouth a couple times to save my ex girlfriends life.. I called in a OD and saved her life, was arrested for this and ordered to a program. Fucking hate probation just as much as the next dude does.
Fast to forward today... Five months clean and still feeling the grip of addiction to some extent. Always patiently waiting to take me back. Separated with my ex and she's back in jail. Oh how I fuckin just love codependent drug fueled love!
Still can't shake her, love that girl to death.. RIDE OR DIE!
Just been going to church and smoking hell of herb. Constantly surrounded by my family here in Oregon so.. Can't complain, I'm absolutely blessed. Not a statistic I'm Brendan.
at age thirteen. Slept around a lot and considered this a right of passage. (looking back at my age today that's absolutely insane!) Eventually tried opiates, two vicodin down the hatch and started chasing that "NOD". Literally felt the presence of God all through my body. Had I arrived? Reborn! I Started stealing oxycodone from my father. Smoking them off foil provided a quick high and snorting them literally all floored me. On my seventeenth birthday I acquired a needle and 4mg of Hydromorphone (DILAUDID), i remember when I finally found a vein. Pushed down into vast feeling of floating around in a dreamy like state between consciousness and nodding into unconsciousness. Was lost after this, I started shooting everything water soluble. Methamphetamine was my demise. Made me turn into a bipolar psychopath. Violent and broken, running on nothing but pure emotion and a head full of the fear that my sanity was forever gone.
I've overdosed from opiates multiple times, hospitalized for drug induced psychosis overs dozen times, been to jail several times, put on probation... had to do mouth to mouth a couple times to save my ex girlfriends life.. I called in a OD and saved her life, was arrested for this and ordered to a program. Fucking hate probation just as much as the next dude does.
Fast to forward today... Five months clean and still feeling the grip of addiction to some extent. Always patiently waiting to take me back. Separated with my ex and she's back in jail. Oh how I fuckin just love codependent drug fueled love!
Still can't shake her, love that girl to death.. RIDE OR DIE!
Just been going to church and smoking hell of herb. Constantly surrounded by my family here in Oregon so.. Can't complain, I'm absolutely blessed. Not a statistic I'm Brendan.
JustSumTomatoes
Indicas make dreams happen
Wishing you only the best on your quest through recovery. I have lost relationships and had people I know die from drugs. I'm sure you know better than anyone that the impact it causes is very real.
LoungeLizard
New member
G-D Bless You for peace and great health
AgentPothead
Just this guy, ya know?
I don't have anything constructive to add but I am glad you are doing good bro.
Welcome back Brendan, it's good to see yer doing so well!
letting anything take control must be the most terrifying thing to happen to a person. i hope you can withstand the desire to give in to that which wants to control you. best wishes to you...
