ph,
The fatigue you are going through is called compassion fatigue.
When something of this magnitude happens, you give of yourself.
Then you give more.
You give till you bleed.
You pour out the blood of your emotions until you are empty.
Then you give more.
You keep giving and wish you could give still more in the hope that it will make things better.
Only when it's over do you really realize just how emotionally drained and exhausted you really are.
Compassion fatigue.
Been there. Done that.
And for you, my friend, it continues because of being the executor.
Every time you have to deal with this it will all come pouring back.
It will never leave you entirely, but in time it will lessen bit by bit.
Being good to yourself in whatever way works for you is the only real medicine for this.
Your generosity towards others may be the way to go for you.
Sure wish I could be there to talk to you while we have a good smoke together.
If you want to talk, please PM me. I'm here for you ph.
oneofus
Hey oneofus
Your words are very much on point and sadly it came from your experience.
I am the type of person to stop and self examine but I may be too deep in the forest to see the trees.
Being an executor is very very intense job so I have been submerged and inundated with one task after another.Im very equipped for this kind of work but the beneficiaries are not of the same character as myself so they create a lot of stress on a very very hard job as it is.Some underhanded behavior.
They just don't understand the concept that I'm on there side!!!!
I feel it's unfortunately that its not in there nature.
There is another queer thing going on in my journey.There is a crazy amount of Coincidences or signs not sure....a lot of recent loss and tragedy....young tragedy .
I have had 3 people cry on the phone to me during a very professional call...lots of weird stuff.
Some of my post is to you and some is just venting.
I think its going to be a good day
Thanks again oneofus.....I'm feeling that sense of community
Thanks everyone