great story mad jag,
once I started reading this, I immediately thought of the movie YOUNG GUNS, lol
there is so much truth in your experience, this is the context in which psychedelics are supposed to, and should be used.
I think that "voice" is a signal or frequency or radiation/energy... or what ever one wants to use to define it... is actually something that is always there (omnipresent?), however subtle it may be, and psychedelics simply quiet our minds and lower our waking state... beta brain waves to levels more sensitive to that "energy" thereby making it better received and interpreted by our brains...
plant teachers are great tools to become re acquainted so one may "know thy self" the key, I think, is using those tools to learn to maintain some form of constant relationship with your "true self" without trippin' and I have (more recently) began to realize the benefits of living from that space and being able to recognize that subtle quiet voice of righteousness among the constant loud annoyance of ego and mind... and through that I feel like I have started to become a better human and a better physical representation of, in your words, my own "wiser self"
I'm gonna have to go back and read more from this thread!
I am searching hard to find peace in My mind. A way to deal with this ever devolving civilization.
I am finding it more and more difficult to deal with the speed of societies advances, because as technology increases the basic civility of the mass's is being LOST. I am a very empathetic person.
I have been trying to find the time to take a "spirit Quest" inner journey as it where. Either through the use of Peyote, or DMT. A heavy dose of Shrooms would probably do the trick, as well. but I really want to do this in the company of a Healer Who can help Me to interporat the messages(realizations) that I am gifted with through the Journey.
Peace & LOve; Twisted