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confession thread
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Hello all,
Forgive me IC brethren for I have sinned.
I, for the first time in my organic grow style life I used....(whilst looking humbled and ashamed) used Eagle 20 on my plants when I put them into the ground on June 1st.
Sprayed them I did, and I liked it...I sprayed the tops the bottoms...I pulled her little leaves apart so's I could get a squirt in her tight places if you know what I mean....
I feel soo ashamed.
minds_I
Forgive me IC brethren for I have sinned.
I, for the first time in my organic grow style life I used....(whilst looking humbled and ashamed) used Eagle 20 on my plants when I put them into the ground on June 1st.
Sprayed them I did, and I liked it...I sprayed the tops the bottoms...I pulled her little leaves apart so's I could get a squirt in her tight places if you know what I mean....
I feel soo ashamed.
minds_I
Regarding the feelings of loneliness and isolation. I too have had these feelings even though I have friends and have fun. I wonder if this isn't something that's common to growers? Being a loner and doing your own thing? These feelings fluctuate but are always there to some degree. I would recommend to anyone and everyone sometimes it's best to quit going through the motions just for the sake of it. Why do you anyways? Because you are supposed to and that's what's expected of you? 2 years back I was so stuck in a rut, working at a job I hated and had wanted to quit for over a year, no love life with only a couple of getting my hopes up instances I finally said fuck it. FUCK IT. I quit my job, let my lease run out, got rid of all of the extra shit in my life. What I didn't need on a daily basis that fit in my car fit in a 5x5 storage unit. I lived out of my car and on friend's couches depending on if I was in town where I used to live or not. Otherwise I was camping, hiking, and dirtbagging all over Colorado. Before that started I was able to spend the amount of time I wanted to back home with old friends and family. I did this for 5 months and it was probably the best thing I could have ever done. I used my last harvest to fund part of it along with working whatever odd jobs I could turn up on Craigslist. Living pretty much hand to mouth with only enough money for ramen and instant potatoes and gas to get to the next town was some of the happiest times of my entire life. I had a sense of purpose doing what I was doing and the amount of time to do whatever the fuck I wanted was amazing. It's ok to unplug and do your own thing. No matter what keep your physical activity level up and do some exercise that you enjoy (swimming, hiking, biking, climbing, skiing & snowboarding, kayaking, jogging & running).
Get outside, do some shit that makes you happy.
Get outside, do some shit that makes you happy.
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I used Eagle 20 in my last grow. I confess. I had 7 different strains, six of which were clones from dispensaries here. First time growing from dispensary clones. Powdery mildew took over the whole veg tent before I sprayed. What else was there to do?
my heart is always heavy with thoughts of how I might have failed Scooby Doo, my pitbull. Eventually I had to put her down for biting me 3 times and I had to do the deed myself, she also attacked Alice my springer spaniel 13 times over a 3 yr period. It broke my heart, there are some things that you can't unsee.
Scooby & Alice
Alice was always so trusting of Scooby,
even within hours after being attacked.
Scooby & Alice
Alice was always so trusting of Scooby,
even within hours after being attacked.
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S4L, you shouldn't feel guilty. You gave that dog more chances that anyone I know would have. You did everything you could think of. That dog's prior abuse broke it somehow and you just couldn't repair it. The fucker who should be feeling the blame is the prior owner that mistreated her.
even if it where a mistake or failure (not saying it was) the only proper reconciliation we have is learning from the experience which is biased by sorrow and regret.
I think that we need to evolve past the notion of failure because it is a necessary component in the learning process, see because if we look at it as failure that is also bias, but if we make it an appropriate part of the human experience we can learn and grow from it.
Everyone should have the capacity to learn from mistakes instead of suffer consequences from failure, because sometimes we simply didn't have all the information we needed to make an other choice.
Learning to let go is a big thing to learn as well as forgiveness, especially for yourself and especially if you a mindful person.
I think that we need to evolve past the notion of failure because it is a necessary component in the learning process, see because if we look at it as failure that is also bias, but if we make it an appropriate part of the human experience we can learn and grow from it.
Everyone should have the capacity to learn from mistakes instead of suffer consequences from failure, because sometimes we simply didn't have all the information we needed to make an other choice.
Learning to let go is a big thing to learn as well as forgiveness, especially for yourself and especially if you a mindful person.
Right on, BB. I second this, and it should be third-ed, fourth-ed, fifth-ed, etc, down the line.
People who adopt dogs are kind-hearted souls, and accept the added responsibility of dealing with potential problem behaviors that come from the dog's previous family's dysfunctions. In my opinion Stoner did everything as well as could be expected, and that includes the unfortunate ending too.
S4L, you need to start telling yourself that you were the best thing Scooby could have hoped for. You gave her more chances than anybody else would.
thnx to all of you, as you might know, I have no children and also no family to speak of either. my dogs are like my children and so I live and die with each of them, unfortunately this chapter in our lives had a hurtful twist and ending. I carry a certain amount of grief that I'm unable to shed yet.
thanks again to you all.......
I grow weed.
I grow weed.
sad times s4l
I grow weed.
sad times s4l
Herb Tarlek
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Stoner,
Thinking about you brother, in your time of despair.
Total stranger,
According to the Internet Will Rodgers said....
“If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went.”
Thinking about you brother, in your time of despair.
Total stranger,
According to the Internet Will Rodgers said....
“If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went.”
What if you're blind and you look with your hands?
I got so high once, I thought I was having a heart attack. I called 911, but as soon as I did, I realized I was just high. But by then I could hear the siren, lol. They rolled up, four or five paramedics jumped out, I was just sitting in a lawn chair. They checked my heart, bp, etc., and even shined a light in my eyes.
Nobody said anything about me being high, but they all knew.
So stupid, I know.
Nobody said anything about me being high, but they all knew.
So stupid, I know.
OranguTrump
Crotchety Old Crotch
I've looked on many women with lust. I've committed adultery in my heart many times. The Flying Spaghetti Monster knows I will do this and forgives me.
