Thanks Silver... It's very much still a work in progress... But my head is clear, and I'm focused again. I have to be busy to use my time effectively and feel good. If I have a surplus of free time, I procrastinate and my anxiety takes hold.
What happened to me... Was that after I had surgery, I was limited in the things I could do... Mostly I was just caring for the plants that were there, with little progress being made. Then the work started piling up, and I was really far behind by the time I could use my arm again. Then as soon as I started feeling better, I wanted to get everything back on track... but you can't do several weeks worth of work in just a few days...
I've been incredibly unhappy, and I finally put my foot down and said "ENOUGH!"... and I started making changes. With the house... The woman left all of her shit there, so it's not like I moved into a basement and just started putting up walls and then moved in plants. I have a LOT of trash in this house... I just moved to an apt complex though and I have several dumpsters at my disposal. Every week when I go up north, I leave with my truck bed full of garbage, and then when I go back I have more room. I put the storage bins I used for growing in the garage, and starting putting things up off the floor. Now that the garage is clean, I can take more stuff out of the house. With all of the water automated, there's not a whole lot I have to do in the garden outside of pruning/shaping and making sure the blumats are working like they should.
I'm actually enjoying myself again now. I'm not nearly as stressed out as I was... Maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm harvesting every 5 weeks again... but it's probably a combination of that an other things... Like the roots exploding in veg...
The grow isn't the only place I've made changes. I hate my regular job... I mean it's easy and I get paid well for what I do, but I'm meant to take on greater challenges. I still have several months before I start on my Master's degree, so I'm taking a technical training course and moving up. Another house has literally fallen in my lap, so it looks like I'll be purchasing property #2 this fall... It's in the city and inexpensive, so I'll have it paid off in less than a year. Then the only housing expense I'll have will be my grow house up north, and I don't want to pay that off until I'm done using it anyway.
I decided I don't want to grow in the same house for the next 4 years... I'll make my money in the next 1.5 years with the current location... and then I'm going to buy a nice lake house if I decide to continue this for the whole 4 years. I'll have time off after I finish my Master's degree, and I'll be able to take a week or two to go into an empty house and build out the basement. It's baby-shit...
Oh... and I've been smoking way incredibly too much... At my highest point I was consuming 5oz a month... I like smoking joints, what can I say... So I started using my bong, with hemp wick cause I hate the taste of butane... but I broke the slide... so I went to the head shop around the corner, and I outfitted my bong with a new glass on glass downstem, ash catcher/diffuser, and a slide...
What happened to me... Was that after I had surgery, I was limited in the things I could do... Mostly I was just caring for the plants that were there, with little progress being made. Then the work started piling up, and I was really far behind by the time I could use my arm again. Then as soon as I started feeling better, I wanted to get everything back on track... but you can't do several weeks worth of work in just a few days...
I've been incredibly unhappy, and I finally put my foot down and said "ENOUGH!"... and I started making changes. With the house... The woman left all of her shit there, so it's not like I moved into a basement and just started putting up walls and then moved in plants. I have a LOT of trash in this house... I just moved to an apt complex though and I have several dumpsters at my disposal. Every week when I go up north, I leave with my truck bed full of garbage, and then when I go back I have more room. I put the storage bins I used for growing in the garage, and starting putting things up off the floor. Now that the garage is clean, I can take more stuff out of the house. With all of the water automated, there's not a whole lot I have to do in the garden outside of pruning/shaping and making sure the blumats are working like they should.
I'm actually enjoying myself again now. I'm not nearly as stressed out as I was... Maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm harvesting every 5 weeks again... but it's probably a combination of that an other things... Like the roots exploding in veg...
The grow isn't the only place I've made changes. I hate my regular job... I mean it's easy and I get paid well for what I do, but I'm meant to take on greater challenges. I still have several months before I start on my Master's degree, so I'm taking a technical training course and moving up. Another house has literally fallen in my lap, so it looks like I'll be purchasing property #2 this fall... It's in the city and inexpensive, so I'll have it paid off in less than a year. Then the only housing expense I'll have will be my grow house up north, and I don't want to pay that off until I'm done using it anyway.
I decided I don't want to grow in the same house for the next 4 years... I'll make my money in the next 1.5 years with the current location... and then I'm going to buy a nice lake house if I decide to continue this for the whole 4 years. I'll have time off after I finish my Master's degree, and I'll be able to take a week or two to go into an empty house and build out the basement. It's baby-shit...
Oh... and I've been smoking way incredibly too much... At my highest point I was consuming 5oz a month... I like smoking joints, what can I say... So I started using my bong, with hemp wick cause I hate the taste of butane... but I broke the slide... so I went to the head shop around the corner, and I outfitted my bong with a new glass on glass downstem, ash catcher/diffuser, and a slide...