If it’s of any consolation when my wife and I got back from vacation nine years ago, we found out that she had inoperable cancer the very next day. I like yourself stood by her side and took care of her for 3 1/2 years. The most difficult part was the last few months, and her physical appearance was difficult to tolerate. You seem like you have the strength to carry her to her final home and may God bless you for doing so… it takes a very special person to walk the path you are walking… If you feel like opening up about this, you’re welcome to send me a PM, and I can share some of my insight that I have learned by that experience… be strong for her