what would you do if you knew you were a bad person and were only going to get worse?
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fuck. not a bad idea. couldnt make it any worse in theory...
.....it's women, huh?
lol. well they always play a part but no its me. opening my eyes to a lot of reality lately and have had to take stock of my life. i realize not everyone is born "good" bad seeds are real.....
For your addiction problems i would recommend some ibogaine.
Deal with your past traumas so you can go on with your life, also reset your brain to a point where it doesnt need anymore substances.
But if you have kidney or liver problems, it can maybe be dangerous for you.
Lsd or mushrooms, lsd can help alcoholics, but i think youd need a nice dose of real L, not some light dose, really give you a good introspection
But honestly, ibogaine for you, but you need to readup on it because it can be dangerous.
Deal with your past traumas so you can go on with your life, also reset your brain to a point where it doesnt need anymore substances.
But if you have kidney or liver problems, it can maybe be dangerous for you.
Lsd or mushrooms, lsd can help alcoholics, but i think youd need a nice dose of real L, not some light dose, really give you a good introspection
But honestly, ibogaine for you, but you need to readup on it because it can be dangerous.
Any woods around that you know well?
Eat some mushrooms, drink some orange juice, and take a nice long walk through the woods.
On a side note, I think you're just experiencing the anxiety that comes along with quitting drinking. I'm a month or so ahead of you on that train, and I'm still dealing with it a bit myself. It does get much better though. The important things are relearning how to deal with your problems (booze is an easy way to NOT deal with your problems), eat well, exercise, and remember that the anxiety is just a feeling of fear. Keep living your life and make positive choices every hour of every day. You'll be fine.
Eat some mushrooms, drink some orange juice, and take a nice long walk through the woods.
On a side note, I think you're just experiencing the anxiety that comes along with quitting drinking. I'm a month or so ahead of you on that train, and I'm still dealing with it a bit myself. It does get much better though. The important things are relearning how to deal with your problems (booze is an easy way to NOT deal with your problems), eat well, exercise, and remember that the anxiety is just a feeling of fear. Keep living your life and make positive choices every hour of every day. You'll be fine.
Acid / mushrooms work wonders... Just be somewhere familiar where you feel comfortable , warm and safe.... Don't be around any dickheads or people who will fuck your head up.
Then a day or two of eating good and resting to let the ol brain re order itself.
Just be prepared to see yourself as you really are with all the front peeled away!
Good luck man , no one who asks if they are a bad person can be all bad- otherwise you wouldn't give a fuck.
Then a day or two of eating good and resting to let the ol brain re order itself.
Just be prepared to see yourself as you really are with all the front peeled away!
Good luck man , no one who asks if they are a bad person can be all bad- otherwise you wouldn't give a fuck.
im gonna try shrooms for what its worth. im not all bad just mostly. i should probably be isolated from society in the wilderness where trees can be my only victims. i just dont feel like it is fair that others have to suffer interacting with me. im a scorpion and they always end up stung sooner or later.
lol. im a scorpion but not a scorpio. very close though. im a saggitarius but only by a couple of days.
The Scorpion and the Frog
A scorpion and a frog meet on the bank of a stream and the
scorpion asks the frog to carry him across on its back. The
frog asks, "How do I know you won't sting me?" The scorpion
says, "Because if I do, I will die too."
The frog is satisfied, and they set out, but in midstream,
the scorpion stings the frog. The frog feels the onset of
paralysis and starts to sink, knowing they both will drown,
but has just enough time to gasp "Why?"
Replies the scorpion: "Its my nature..."
A scorpion and a frog meet on the bank of a stream and the
scorpion asks the frog to carry him across on its back. The
frog asks, "How do I know you won't sting me?" The scorpion
says, "Because if I do, I will die too."
The frog is satisfied, and they set out, but in midstream,
the scorpion stings the frog. The frog feels the onset of
paralysis and starts to sink, knowing they both will drown,
but has just enough time to gasp "Why?"
Replies the scorpion: "Its my nature..."
my funny answer was gonna be "post!" but "i'm a scorpion" ain't funny...
might want to study epistemology - the study of knowledge. once you study it, you can reason your way past what you think you know
i don't know what you've done, but being concerned about the future more than the past is sensible. try not to be so sure about things - you may have been raised to believe things can only be a certain way, or can't change, and that could be doing the most damage.
might want to study epistemology - the study of knowledge. once you study it, you can reason your way past what you think you know
i don't know what you've done, but being concerned about the future more than the past is sensible. try not to be so sure about things - you may have been raised to believe things can only be a certain way, or can't change, and that could be doing the most damage.
a leopard can never change his spots. thats all i really make of it. i think it has to do with genetics. everyone or almost that i am related to is pretty fucked as well as those generations before mine.
you see, society has got all these devices, pitfalls like - i call them memetics - to basically fuck people up.
fucked up people are a resource because you can manipulate people who need. a lot of the way society is is designed to hurt people.
the belief in science for instance is *referential* - dependent upon so many observations you are incapable of making personally - it is a *referential authority*
areferentialism, or autonomy, is inhibited in western civ. it is implicit to things like buddhism. which is why westeners have "perception management" so that they cannot grasp concepts like wu we because they've been shown some hippy dippy wrong but appealing way to look at it.
okay - genetics? genetics apparently mutate. who knows how absolutely.
there is an amount of scientific evidence that outlook affects physiology. a creative outlook *with as few existing definitions as possible* allows for the most elastic state of being. if you study epistemology, you can appreciate that knowledge is impossible. there is no absolute proof of knowledge. while this may seem like messy logistics, *it is the heart of other, widespread, recorded cultural outlooks*
eg. the chinese classic "journey to the west" regarding sun wu kong, "monkey awakened to emptiness" - it is this absolute nescience that absolute integrity of intellect produces that is conveyed in this thought.
convictions make convicts.
like this buddhist analogy for life.. "guy goes to a farmer and says he'll sell him a wife for $100. next year, the guy comes back and says "your wife had a son, play $200""
knowing may make you feel good and proud and patriotic or whatever but you're kinda selling yourself the wife right now. the western expression is termed "epistemological solipsism" you can look it up and understand how there is, definitively, no possible knowledge except self knowledge. it's a natural concept in other cultures, but a hideous, alien one in cultures where certainty is used to exploit and control.
i like to talk shit but i'm out so have a good one and don't get too carried away with it.
fucked up people are a resource because you can manipulate people who need. a lot of the way society is is designed to hurt people.
the belief in science for instance is *referential* - dependent upon so many observations you are incapable of making personally - it is a *referential authority*
areferentialism, or autonomy, is inhibited in western civ. it is implicit to things like buddhism. which is why westeners have "perception management" so that they cannot grasp concepts like wu we because they've been shown some hippy dippy wrong but appealing way to look at it.
okay - genetics? genetics apparently mutate. who knows how absolutely.
there is an amount of scientific evidence that outlook affects physiology. a creative outlook *with as few existing definitions as possible* allows for the most elastic state of being. if you study epistemology, you can appreciate that knowledge is impossible. there is no absolute proof of knowledge. while this may seem like messy logistics, *it is the heart of other, widespread, recorded cultural outlooks*
eg. the chinese classic "journey to the west" regarding sun wu kong, "monkey awakened to emptiness" - it is this absolute nescience that absolute integrity of intellect produces that is conveyed in this thought.
convictions make convicts.
like this buddhist analogy for life.. "guy goes to a farmer and says he'll sell him a wife for $100. next year, the guy comes back and says "your wife had a son, play $200""
knowing may make you feel good and proud and patriotic or whatever but you're kinda selling yourself the wife right now. the western expression is termed "epistemological solipsism" you can look it up and understand how there is, definitively, no possible knowledge except self knowledge. it's a natural concept in other cultures, but a hideous, alien one in cultures where certainty is used to exploit and control.
i like to talk shit but i'm out so have a good one and don't get too carried away with it.
i appreciate you effort to help but that stuff is more confusing for me than anything. im gonna try shrooms and then i am going to try hypnosis. fingers crossed...........
this reminds me of an experiment by genesis p-orridge.
i guess a lot of the audience at a show were skinheads. to convey some kind of amusing mental image and set a scene.
during some "song" he gestures and starts calling one half of the audience "bad" and one half "good". this was in the eighties when things were kind of dark, and apparently things got kinda tense and divided in the two groups.
w.s. burroughs, inheritor of count korzybski's (sp.?) thoughts on semantics..
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