All looking very choice, YK...you handle your salivas well!!
All looking very choice, YK...you handle your salivas well!!
gonna try it with some basil to see how it goes, changing the water is the key, huh?
my water is too acidic so i add a touch of baking soda.
thanks for your tek!
Thanks guys. I try to make a point to never be ashamed of being sick. Stigma around mental illness exists because we hide it away and others can’t understand our pain.
Sharing experiences regardless of how embarrassing or painful does a number of things including opening ones self up to support from those who either do or will at least try to understand and help.
It also shows others who are suffering that if they can just:
HANG. ON! That eventually they have the chance to find it in themselves to share their burdens with people who can help.
Cannabis has helped me stay Alive. But it was Therapy that really got me through the nuts and bolts of what PTSD is what it does and how you can affect the changes that it causes in your life.
Depression is another thing that requires knowledge to know how to fight.
And cognizance. Marijuana takes away the pain to an extent but it also limits your ability to recognize the thoughts and feelings leading into a depressive episode and thereby limits your ability to change that feedback loop before it starts to drag you down.
My greatest success using marijuana with depression is to wait until I either survive the episode (WITH SUPERVISION! DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE ENDANGERED!!!!) or I interrupt it’s cycle enough to use cannabis as a “reset” on the now vulnerable “circuit” in the brain that has caused the episode.
This isn’t getting stoned and feeling better. It’s using the malleable nature of neural pathways and the ability of cannabis to further “plasticize” those pathways and then ACTIVELY engaging that thought pattern with counter thoughts and arguments to ELIMINATE it’s validity to your own sense of logic.
As to relationships.. I follow the middle path. I am a follower of the thoughts of Hui Neng sixth patriarch of Zen Buddhism.. in as much as I understand them. I have come to my own understanding of Individualism and the illusions therein as well the Nature of Universal balance.. I picked up the Tao Te Ching at age 11. I read Sun Tzu the I Ching Krishnamurti DesCartes Socrates Nietzsche and others I have forgotten before picking up DT Suzuki’s book on Zen Buddhism and finding.., something about it that made ALL the other readings fit within the same family of thoughts and a Realization that Self (universal self.. true divine nature or perhaps “the fundamental reality of any living thing”) lies in the path we take and the way we Travel it.
I put down the books and Lived.
But it was armed with the Truth that my Life can change the Balance of all things it touches and the effects will last through eternity.
This is true for all things but especially those that are Alive and Sentient as we define it these days. The worst piece of my struggle with Self has been accepting that my personal power is only a small part of the greatest principle I have found in my experience.
And the only thread common to EVERY experience throughout existence.
Change. All things change. That is how they stay the same. The parameters that govern our interpretation of existence are set by the fact that something changed to cause them. And they constantly shift in small (to some.. not to others) ways so that Existence is not crystallized into a still and dead thing.
Which makes sense on paper to me. It didn’t while I watched the Life leave a 14 yr old boys eyes and TRIED to GIVE him a piece of my soul (easiest metaphor in this context) to hang onto.
He did. He lived (barely) a few more hours and his family was able to gather round him and say goodbye.
No sense of individual power can overcome Death nor Creation. These are what bind all living things as family.
Fuckn made myself cry sharing all that. Not the boys death. It will always Hurt but he is a source of strength to me now.. a thing I have done that I feel was Good. In the greatest sense of that word.
I cry because I have never expressed my thoughts on fundamental truth so lucidly. It feels good to be able to express this and I hope someone finds meaning in it that enriches their own Path.
Thank you Mayan. Thank you Paisa. Thank you Sertaiz. Thank you to all citizens of ICMAG who have helped me get here and will continue helping me go beyond.
We are all in this together wether we know it or not. And we are all catalyst to existence... keep understanding as much as you can and when you don’t try to realize you are also mysterious and your answer lies within.
I’m going to hang up my philosophers hat and go try to earn some $ for my fams.
One Love. One Existence. One Self.
Peace.
An unravelling account of a spiritual path taken and followed, comprehensive and concise to the very last word...the departing of that boy is one of many a case that leave indelible marks on our understanding of Kosmos...solidly convinced this world would be a better place, did everyone take in and practice that Universal approach you so clearly laid out...
Thanks heaps for sharing! Be blessed!
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Thanks! I was hoping this thread would be something more than just my failure or success to grow weed... the Kalinga looks beautiful! There’s actually a rapidly growing Philippino population in the Yukon.. come up for a vacation and spread her around you might find someone who recognizes it!Yukonkronic
I love reading your posts here!
Very detailed and shows your a passionate organic grower, which I admire very much considering how much Cannabis here in Canada is likely not organic and perhaps even over fertilized with gross synthetic nutes.
Just showing some appreciation to ya.
Keep writing the novellas man!
I can't get enough.
Haha
And thank you for being willing to talk about mental health.
I have found over the years some people who are open minded about the subject have helped me through hard times.
And the others who were negative influences and closed minded and unwilling to express the truth about themselves and their situations in life to be less than helpful to say the least.
I had a serious run in with PTSD and depression and anxiety after a life threatening attack on me when I was a younger man and cannabis definitely helps with coping through some of my internal and external struggles, and it's really good to hear someone explain thoroughly the pro's and con's and details of how to use cannabis to try to cope with mental health.
It really strikes at the core of my being and my heart.
Thanks so much for that.
Just know your posts about mental health to me feel like the most important information you could spread here.
Not to mention all the neat things you use in your soil composition.
That's dang good info as well.
I hope to be able to grow like you do one day.
I am super impressed and inspired.
Keep up the good vibes and keep on spreading the good messages about mental health.
I have a tiny little grow that consists of some ace seeds crosses I've been breeding for about ten years now. And I usually cross my ace varieties with local clone only strains too.
Great minds think alike
Lol
I also have ae unique landrace strain called Philippine Kalinga.
The "real" Kalinga IMO haha though it is frustrating to say that without being a local from the Philippines who would be "in the know"
Check out the strange buds it produces!
I grew it ages ago and have been hoarding the beans ever since.
But it's something I would love to reproduce as a stable sativa to share with other in the future.
Here's a pic
To share in that Sati fan joy!