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idoreallytry
can't wait to see what she looks like,,,peace
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Retardo's Asylum
- Thread starter Retardo Motabon
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guest3901
me too..
smells freakin great in here...skunky...grapey...lol.
makes me hungry.
smells freakin great in here...skunky...grapey...lol.
makes me hungry.
My astronomical sign has always drawn me toward things of the earth whether nature, or material posessions. I have worked very hard to reduce this part of my personality and have come a long way.
However i am totally crushed by what just happened.
Pretty much everything i won has gotten old and beat up Clothes, shoes, car, bed you name it. We've been broke for quite awhile so food and bills always get our $. there is never any left for that stuff.
I dont really care, my pssessions and how they appear are not important to me in the big picture.
My only shiny thing of my own i had left is now gone.
I use a laptop you could buy on ebay for $30 with black spots of dead pixels covering parts of the screen and it sucks. My other computer was my baby and worth more than my car.
A small person just tipped it over on its 24" high resolution screen.
Its totalled. i'd need almost 3 grand to replace it. I dont have enough money to get a haircut much less replace it. I no longer have a workstation to do my photo editing for the photography i do outside of taking IC budshots. i edit those with a fre app that this piece of shit ;aptop can handle. For doing professional editing in photoshop I needed the
one that broke.
I just feel sick inside.
I know its pretty petty to feel sorry for myself when some dont even have a roof over their heads and others are child slaves making clothes and consumer goods or exploited for sex by evil people.
i just had to try to get a bit of this feeling out of my stomach.
Tired of being broke and unemployed. tired of being verbally lashed multiple times per day for not having a job. Tired of letting the bills that have piled up cant pay roll off my back, telling myself things will turn around and trying to keep my chin up.
I dont grow for income. Its a penance for me and a moral issue. I ran clone runs for a long time. I hated it when I would look at the crop and try to estimate the yield and how much it would bring in.
There is a duality that I, and likely many of you growers struggle with.
The exploitation of this most mighty of plants for a quick buck is the polar opposite of what the plant teaches us and offers us freely.
I dont look at a 7 gram bud and see 100$. I see beauty. I've always shared of what I have and often give it freely to counter the temptation of the dollar signs she can bring.
The scene that has grown around this godlike plant saddens me.
SHe is being treated like a whore by pimps popping up everywhere excited to make a quick buck and revel in the ego of their false worth and power.
So many products with fancy labels, ads with scantily clad women, towns taken over by criminals where there were once hippies now being replaced by folks with weapons. Dispensaries that have smoke machines in front of the shop to make it look like herb smoke is rolling out onto the street with reggae music playing to entice customers in for high priced herbs.
She has been wrapped in the robes of babylon and turned into a consumer fad. Its a difficult thing. Though many are merely profiteering off of her which is against the spirit of the plant, there are people who need those herbs and I am glad they are there for those people but the nature of the producer proving them to get rich quick I despise. How do we want cannabis treated and represented? I cant wait for the day it has been legal all over and folks can buy their seeds from the burpee seed rack in the spring at the hardware or grocery store for a few bucks and grow it in the garden without fear of persecution or rippers. She helps us rise above babylon yet we are using her as a slave of the babylon system.
I cant help but wonder if I am helping perpetuate this problem by posting pics all the time, talking strains up, etc..
It is very important to me to grow for the right reasons and stay in her shining light to deal with the duality that is created due to her prohibition.
Flame me if you want. I just feel beaten down right now.
RM
Grapey and Skunky... how'd you know?
I gave out a cut of my Grape Skunk this spring; in exchange I just asked for a taste of the Outdoor bud it was to become. So yesterday... I got about 5g of outdoor GSK!
Lesson 1: The sun grows better pot than I do.
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I gave out a cut of my Grape Skunk this spring; in exchange I just asked for a taste of the Outdoor bud it was to become. So yesterday... I got about 5g of outdoor GSK!
Lesson 1: The sun grows better pot than I do.
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Yup got the blues. Here's a song for you Mary Jane.
Little Wing
Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.
When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.
Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing
Little Wing
Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.
When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.
Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing
I
idoreallytry
sorry to hear about the computer man...i am in ur boat, i cut my own hair and use a shitty laptop but i have no bigger computer i do have another vise that i spend money on and if the lil one broke my golf clubs i would be upset too, sorry bro,,,if u can't feel sorry for urself who can u feel sorry for,,,well i hope u buy a lottery ticket and win enought to get u a new computer,,,peace brother
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guest3901
thats a bummer about the machine...fuck,i'd be pissed..lol.
yeah man....things are shitty man...but things will get better.
dont dwell on the negative...that will get ya no where...
if ya wanna talk...ya know how to get me...
TIME TO SMOKE...
yeah man....things are shitty man...but things will get better.
dont dwell on the negative...that will get ya no where...
if ya wanna talk...ya know how to get me...
TIME TO SMOKE...
hey friend,i just use my laptop for ic,it's afew years old but it runs at 3.2 gig and has a video card,say the word and i'll ship it to you for as long as you need. i feel yah bro,it's beans and rice again this week,at least i got soil. it took me a long time to not see my plants as $$$$, don't worry YOUR DOING IT RIGHT!!! you've inspired me my friend, anything i have is yours man don't hesitate to ask even if we only know each other digitally.
lol...I'm broke as a joke too.
I say fuckem. The long, the short, and the tall, fuckem all.
Way I see it, they can't buy me, just rent me for awhile.
It's all on me, and once I figgered that out, I was fine.
I say fuckem. The long, the short, and the tall, fuckem all.
Way I see it, they can't buy me, just rent me for awhile.
It's all on me, and once I figgered that out, I was fine.
Dude, you are so not alone.
I'm broke as a joke three. Just lost a 3kw crop in it's entirety, and I have no other job.
Cannabis is a fine lady, and much like DJ Short, she doesn't mind if you ride her coat-tails, just take off your shoes and have respect for the community.
I'm broke as a joke three. Just lost a 3kw crop in it's entirety, and I have no other job.
Cannabis is a fine lady, and much like DJ Short, she doesn't mind if you ride her coat-tails, just take off your shoes and have respect for the community.
I
idoreallytry
no wonder we are all in the asylum we all have shitty ass luck,,,we are going crazy with bad luck,,,peace
not to fart sunshine but I'm doing pretty good,finally have a good show going,got a great workshop,plenty of room for all my ambitions.last 2 years have SUCKED,but all the hard work is paying off,selling artwork,back on my bike after years(after being a pedestrian for 2 years it's nice to go fast!),may on occasion be described as happy! turns out there wasn't a good faerie waiting to make everything ok,i had to suck it up and do it.not to say i'm where i want to be but i'm on the way now.
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idoreallytry
it sure frosts up like my Pre98, that looks great Phillthy someone done a killer job on those beans,,,peace
GK update
GK update
well retardo,your favorite scrawny gk i think is going to be something special,the stem is deep purple,def not k deficient, nice and fuzzy too.just transplanted to larger pots,will need to flower in 8 to 10 gallons after vegging and any topping and training i may engage in during the next month i'm thinking at this point.may have clones ready before the from seed plants are ready.
gk's are in the buckets.better shots after they perk back up and i move some stuff to flower tonite,jones krushers are showing tails and 2 are starting to break the soil
GK update
well retardo,your favorite scrawny gk i think is going to be something special,the stem is deep purple,def not k deficient, nice and fuzzy too.just transplanted to larger pots,will need to flower in 8 to 10 gallons after vegging and any topping and training i may engage in during the next month i'm thinking at this point.may have clones ready before the from seed plants are ready.
gk's are in the buckets.better shots after they perk back up and i move some stuff to flower tonite,jones krushers are showing tails and 2 are starting to break the soil
The gk like alot of room for roots, they should take off real soon for ya. Great news on the jones! I think they are going to be a real treat.
I'm jonesin' here myself! No puffing till tomorrow.
THings are looking much sunnier right now and I hope to bring some fresh pics into the asylum soon.
Thanks for the support everyone, it means alot and really helps out.
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Sorry for the public rant, it was a bad day to say the least.
Keep on growing!
RM
I'm jonesin' here myself! No puffing till tomorrow.
THings are looking much sunnier right now and I hope to bring some fresh pics into the asylum soon.
Thanks for the support everyone, it means alot and really helps out.
leads to...Sorry for the public rant, it was a bad day to say the least.
Keep on growing!
RM
Pilots with laptops drinking felonious bongwater.
