It crazy how addiction works. Every morning I swear im done, hen 4-5 pm hits and my brain somehow comes up for a reason to need it. Itcan ne simple like an argument with my wife or over whelmed with the kids, other times i might get a headache n think maybe I should just take one shot. Or man what if alcohol is preventing my from bloodclots, better thin my blood with 1 shot! One shot is all it takes, a single lil bottle, then i meed “just” 2 more, then just 2 more, then just 2 more. 4 trips to the store later n im blitzed. I dont handle all the stuff i have to do, procrastination kicks in, n when i wake up I swear off drinking again. Then boom here come 4pm. I feel like im in groundhog day. Wtf wrong with my brain???