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I'm feeling better so I've crawled out of my funk. I had surgery on Halloween and haven't been on much. Seems that not only was my vertebrae fractured but my tailbone is busted too. Surprise! That explains why I can't sit or stand without sweltering pain. Fetal has been my only relief. The pain is so bad at times,...but it doesn't compair with the pain of a depressed heart. You folks know what its like to be really sad? Nothing worse.
Anyway the second surgery did absolutley squat except give me a new scar. I am going back to the neurologist in December and we are gonna talk about what comes next. I am about out of choices and thats why I'm so depressed. Not for me but for my family. Looks like fusion may be my only option.
Bah...but like I said above...I feel better today and the funk is gone, altho not far off.
Family, friends, and sunshine made today special. I took my .22 rifle out and fired 3 clips at some paper plates. Not bad either. 10 rounds at 70' in a 2 1/2" pattern--STANDING. I almost forgot I am injured..felt alive! Maybe my good attitude will trickle into tomarrow...and the next day,..and the next.
Thanks again folks.
And a big ol wet Seed kiss on all your pink parts Pomh. I love you.
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Going forward keep us posted please your a valued friend/member/family member here and in your life and I recognize that you have forged some great friendships which prove the sort of person you are. Apply your faith in yourself to this, stay strong and take good care of yourself.
Thanks very much for sharing that, I really appreciate it.
Sorry to hear about the tailbone thing and that all did not go as expected. I hope my contribution to your cause is helping out some. We need you back in chat ASAP. Seeing you Online and not In Chat is just weird.
Hello friends!
As some of you know I had another procedure a couple of days ago. You know what? I feel GREAT!!! It didn't help the numbness/weakness in my leg and foot but it relieved a big part of my pain. I'm keeping my fingers crossed but I think my nightmare is about over! Thanks to all of you folks that gave me an open ear thru all of this. I would have felt very alone without it.
I still face alot of recovery. I'm sure I'll be getting some treatments that Im not thrilled with but I'm just damn glad I don't hurt like I used too. There was a couple of times I contemplated eating lead instead of pills. It was that bad and my esteem was that low. PHEW...I made it and I'm all the stronger. Now I can tackle the next thing on my agenda...kicking my pill habit. I think the mass pills I've been on have done more damage to me physically and phycologically than the injury itself!
I'll keep ya'll posted on my recovery..and if ya want live reports I'm usually in chat flappin my gums. I'd be glad to talk to ya!
Great news to hear Seed. Those pills wont be a problem for a guy like you . You new going in so when your ready to quit you will know then too Great to hear things are going well Ill bet your wife has a nice smile on her face seeing you feel better . Im so happy for you guys