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I've Lost my Father

LadyOlive

Member
Hello Friends,

It's been a very sad New Years for me, I've lost my Father. He passed away on Friday the 30th. The stroke was just too hard on him. Then with the bleeding ulcer and then getting pnemonia. There was just too much damage done. I am so glad I went out to Phoenix when I did, when he could still talk. He was very confused and had lost a lot of his memory but we still had some good talks and I understood what he wanted to do. He told me to go back home to my family. He said he had a plan. He knew he was going to die and I think I did too, I just didn't want to lose him. And he did not want me staying there and watching him deteriate. And so he did not fight. He didn't want to live the rest of his life like that. Who would. But I hated knowing he was going to leave.
He was so sweet one of the last days I was out there, I would kiss him on his forehead a lot and he looked at me and smiled and said "Kiss me on my face".
So I kissed him on his cheek and I just held him tight.

I was very close to my Father even though I hadn't seen him in 9 years. We would call each other and write letters all the time. I loved him so, so much. I am heartbroken knowing I will never hear his voice again. And it is so hard. He was such a talented man, he did woodworking and had made beautiful tables and clocks. He had made a kitchen table and just the top had over a thousand inlaid pieces of wood. He invented the machine that cut the wood pieces for the things he had made.
He was also skydiver in the 60's and made over 300 jumps. He was a very free spirited man who loved the desert, the mountains, and the sun shining on his face. I am going to miss so much.

I hope everyone had and has a wonderful and properous 2006. And I thank you all for your caring and concern over the last month. It has really meant a lot to me.

LadyOlive

My Father


 

Tonyton

Active member
Lady olive,
I feel for you, I know what you are going thru. My father past away three years ago and I still think of him every day. Damn we were so close.....I will keep you in my prayers.
TT. much love for the lost.
 
G

Guest

I am glad you got a chance to say goodbye to your father.
Hold on tight to the wonderful memories you and your father shared.
Keep your head up, daddy is watching over you. You make him proud.
My thoughts go out to YOU.
May peace and happiness follow your loss.
 
G

Guest

Very sorry for your loss. I'm glad you got time to spend with him in the end. I'm sure your father is in a better place and watching over you and the family. I know its hard, but try to be strong. It's always so very hard when you loose a close family member. You take care and be strong.
BG
 
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omega7

Member
Very sorry to hear LO. Not to sound insensitive, but I believe it was for the best. I did not know your father, but from what you have said it sounds like a free spirit like his is better off without a body of such physical constraints. After the stroke of course. Wishing the best for you and yours in the coming year, with a new guardian angel to bless you.
 

3legdog

Active member
Very sorry Lady O. ..stay strong & you always have us to lean on...sure been a blessing having such a strong community.
 

Rellikbuzz

Active member
As all the others have so graciously stated, I am truly sorry for you loss. Having lost both of my parents I know how you must feel right now, Lady O. Such a blessing you were given to be able to spend such precious time with your Dad before his demise. These memories will carry you through the rest of your life until you meet him again in a far better place than this. And so the "Circle of Life" carries on as it does for us all.
 
G

Guest

Lady Olive, My heart goes out to you in your time of need.
Having lost my father back in 1982, I am here to tell you that the pain never really goes away. Now My mother, whom I am taking care of is in the last years of her life ( I will not put her in a nursing home) and I am bracing myself to go through that pain all over again.

Please accept my heart felt condolences in your time of need.
May God's peace come over you.

Peace,
Dankdude.
 

Weed Farmer

Member
I am very sorry for your lost...it is a very sad occassion, indeed...you are very lucky that you had the opportunity to spend some time with him before his passing...cherish your memories... and hold on to the thought that he is in a better place and your will be with him again.
Peace my friend.
 

Marco Renda

Active member
So sorry to hear about the loss of your father. He is now resting in a much better place without any suffering.

Condolences and prayers being sent to you and your family

Take Care and Peace
Marco
 

EcoNepenthe

Active member
LadyOlive:
When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.

Stay safe.

Eco

Watch em grow!!! :canabis:
 

Jenna

Active member
Sorry to hear this Lady O. It so tough to loose a parent, even as an adult. Sending hugs your way
 

Mrs.Babba

THE CHIMNEY!!
ICMag Donor
Veteran
Our thoughts go out to you in your time of sorrow, its hard to lose a loved one, we are the ones that suffer, they are at peace and have nothing but joy in their future, please remember all the good times you had and share those with the ones you love, its a great way to share your memories, and you have friends here also that will help any way possible :)
 
G

Guest

Mrs.Babba said:
Our thoughts go out to you in your time of sorrow, its hard to lose a loved one, we are the ones that suffer, they are at peace and have nothing but joy in their future, please remember all the good times you had and share those with the ones you love, its a great way to share your memories, and you have friends here also that will help any way possible :)
:wave: Everything has been said. His suffering is over. Now it's your turn to heal and only time will help there. You are in our thoughts and prayers, peace be unto you and yours. :badday:

The Tokes
 

mrwags

********* Female Seeds
ICMag Donor
Veteran
Lady Olive my family's prayers go out to ya. I lost my dad last March to cancer. Words do not describe what it feels like but I took heart in the fact that he was no longer suffering when his time came. I will say you saved yourself a TON of grief by being there in the end. I can only hope you got to say the things that I didn't. I wish ya the best Lady Olive, I can only say by the look of the picture He had one hell of a good life and will live on forever in your heart. When I make my first jump this Spring (I dive to) I promise I'll carry a Rose down with me and let it go half way down in tribute,we jumpers are kinda crazy like that.


Mr.Wags
 
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