Sorry to hear of your loss AOH, my condolences.
good people, i am most grateful for your thoughts & replies on here. i ran WAY the hell out of + rep trying to give folks what they deserve. i went deer hunting today in a place we had hunted together for over 15 years, but it is not the same. i'm going tomorrow to a place way the fuck back in the mountains that our father showed us as children. i need silence except for the wind & birds...