Man I haven't even been lurking the home thread much.... Haven't been doing much at all latley.... And my grow sucks for the moment..... Mainly because I'm a dumbass....
you gotta quit being so hard on yourself !!! you could not have helped what happened ! & it could have been alot worse than the outcome that did happen ! you could have died & they would have had to drag your dead body from the deep !
the garden is just that .... a garden ! its all replaceable & easy to get going again , your not !!! so ease up , heal up & we'll get that garden back to flourishing in no time !!!