CoCoSativas
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My wife wants kids asap. I'm like we can wait but she won't hear that shit
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That's a decent idea but I don't handle death well. My ex had a couple cats as old as me (what do you expect she was 20 years older than me) and after we broke up my favorite cat died. We didn't talk much after we split but she reached out to tell me. Anyway that really fucked with me. Death period I have a mom I'm retiring I can't bring myself to kill so I'm trying to find her a home. Lol anyway I'd probably get super attached to the dog and get so miserable when it died. We probably won't own pets. Ever.
To be honest I do t really want kids but hey if she wants to do the work... I have plants to worry about fuck off. Legitimately I am busy, leave me alone.
My grandfather died yesterday. Now all my grandparents are dead. Not really handling it well. Adding to my misery. I hate death.
yeah handling death aint that easy ...
my little brother died not half a year ago because of a fuckin glioblastom ( aggressive form of braincancer ) watching him " rot " away was the most painful experience till now.
but head up coco!! Your ladies + first lady are in need of you
hehe tonys idea about the puppy made me smirk ( as far as I know women use that trick on men to get them slowly to a child )
my little brother died not half a year ago because of a fuckin glioblastom ( aggressive form of braincancer ) watching him " rot " away was the most painful experience till now.
but head up coco!! Your ladies + first lady are in need of you
hehe tonys idea about the puppy made me smirk ( as far as I know women use that trick on men to get them slowly to a child )
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Sorry buddy. 1luv helios212 sorry that shit happened.
Sorry about the glioblastoma diagnosis....and your loss...
One of the MOST difficult cancers to experience as a pt and family......
VERY Hard to treat symptoms effectively....
Love to you brother!
GT
One of the MOST difficult cancers to experience as a pt and family......
VERY Hard to treat symptoms effectively....
Love to you brother!
GT
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Hang over... sucked bad until the tramacet started to work. I'm going to do something I've never done. Spend a day in bed. Sure I could do shit but I'm totally content right here relaxing.
Lol had 2 blankets on now my leg is sticking out I'm too warm. Ah opiates what a great find for humanity. So helpful... though they certainly have their negatives too
Lol had 2 blankets on now my leg is sticking out I'm too warm. Ah opiates what a great find for humanity. So helpful... though they certainly have their negatives too
Nothing beats a poppy bulb in some tea, lol way to take a day off Coco, I have to make myself do that too, but pretty much have to be sick or extremely medicated or I end up working on the house.
Dogs are worth it for me, fucked me up taking my old boy for the bacon walk, I had him since I was a punk 20 year old, his dad was a guard dog from a biker shack I sat on for a bit after my house went down. Went through everything together.
But when I look back, it was me and him through shit I can't even tell people about, shit people wouldn't even believe... And that's worth it put a smile on my face every day.
It's all worth it man, love is the best thing and companionship of people and animals we get close with. There's nothing more special and uplifting than that, and even in the shittiest moments you gotta love the people you do because they are themselves in spite of themselves,lol , perfectly unperfect and that's why the bonds are there!
Sorry to hear of the losses posted here, just a reminder to appreciate today and think back on the special people we remember and those times that shaped us.
Dogs are worth it for me, fucked me up taking my old boy for the bacon walk, I had him since I was a punk 20 year old, his dad was a guard dog from a biker shack I sat on for a bit after my house went down. Went through everything together.
But when I look back, it was me and him through shit I can't even tell people about, shit people wouldn't even believe... And that's worth it put a smile on my face every day.
It's all worth it man, love is the best thing and companionship of people and animals we get close with. There's nothing more special and uplifting than that, and even in the shittiest moments you gotta love the people you do because they are themselves in spite of themselves,lol , perfectly unperfect and that's why the bonds are there!
Sorry to hear of the losses posted here, just a reminder to appreciate today and think back on the special people we remember and those times that shaped us.
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I have to limit my attachments. I get way too attached to people and animals. I'm still not 100% over my feelings for my ex they are really complicated. I still care about her alot. I feel I still have love for her but I'm not in love anymore. I know even if we were both single again I'd never be able to hook up with her again, because she broke my heart into a million pieces. There's alot I still dont understand.
Anyway I don't handle loss well. I'm a fucking freak about it. Recently someone I have alot of respect for was in the hospital. I don't know this guy in person but through online interactions and so on. Anyway the thought crossed my mind, how would I feel if what had him in the hospital got the better of him (he had some bad shit ) and I came to the conclusion I wouldn't handle it well at all. I mean it would have devastated me. I don't typically thing in those terms bit I was worried, and had to ask myself what would I do, how would I feel... mostly I just wanted to think about it so I had a idea should anything like that ever happen. I'm weird like that I like to yell and act tough but I'm pretty sensitive especially when it comes to loss.
Yeah I am thinking I might start cultivating my own poppies unless I can get a nice morphine hookup. Though I see my Dr on Saturday who knows maybe she will help. If not I'll handle it. I'm looking into some really heavy duty indica. Someone gifted me some grapefruit which seems to help. Real stand up cat, he is worried about my condition. I wish I could give this dude a big hug he's gotta be one of the nicest people I've talked to in a while. Just cares about people you know? It's a honour for me to have such a friend
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Got a condolences text from my mother in law just as I finished my last post, about my grandfather. I have mixed feelings about my mother in law. She's ok for the most part. My father in laws a little creepy though he thinks I want to nail my mother in law. I mean if we were both single and she grew her hair sure I would but duh everyone's married. Kinda nasty way to think. I don't know if he knows about my ex or not maybe he thinks I'm into older women. I mean I am but I'm faithful 1000% and the thought of being dishonorable doesn't even compute in my mind. I love my wife and don't look at other women like that. I admire pretty women but I don't think about them sexually because I think of my wife that way.
Honour is everything to me.
Lol so while I'm blabbing I had a thought. Who here has or wanted to hook up with a chick much older than them? Pretty fun stuff and lots of older women take great care of themselves. They eat good and like to fuck. Fun stuff if you ask me
Honour is everything to me.
Lol so while I'm blabbing I had a thought. Who here has or wanted to hook up with a chick much older than them? Pretty fun stuff and lots of older women take great care of themselves. They eat good and like to fuck. Fun stuff if you ask me
First of all,thx for the warm words fellas.the first weeks werent easy,but my oldest friend came back to germany to bring me back on track.
Lets switch the topic MILF'S !!
Heehee what can I say : I was 23 when that polish 44 y.o. made me her pray ,lol. Hands down: best sex ever ! She knew what she wanted... up till now no women could hand her the water
Lets switch the topic
MILF'S !!Heehee what can I say : I was 23 when that polish 44 y.o. made me her pray ,lol. Hands down: best sex ever ! She knew what she wanted... up till now no women could hand her the water
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First of all,thx for the warm words fellas.the first weeks werent easy,but my oldest friend came back to germany to bring me back on track.
Lets switch the topic
Heehee what can I say : I was 23 when that polish 44 y.o. made me her pray ,lol. Hands down: best sex ever ! She knew what she wanted... up till now no women could hand her the water
Yeah right on buddy. I should make a cougars prey social ahahahahaha that would be so dope. Willing prey or some shit idk what to call it. Anyone got a name that's got some ring to it? Cougar catchers?
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Sad today. Really bummed out I wish something good would happen... everything's going so slow and I am not digging it. I hate being depressed it makes these shitty days feel like they last forever. I just wish I didn't feel like this all the time I need a change of scene badly.
Kweku Ananse
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Wow, coco, helios, thanks for being real, human, feeling, expressing (watch out tomhill is about to come in here and bash me for being a newage douche hippy, with all my "feelings" talk lol)
I feel for you guys, loss is hard. Just remember that it's all part of the journey and we'll all be together again very soon
Ps. Love milfs.
Be well, friends. If you guys wanna keep talking, my inbox is wide open.
I feel for you guys, loss is hard. Just remember that it's all part of the journey and we'll all be together again very soon
Ps. Love milfs.
Be well, friends. If you guys wanna keep talking, my inbox is wide open.
Kweku Ananse
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Ps coco, maybe I'll offer you a job in two years if I get a business started - give you a reason to apply for visa or whatever. Tho, I've been watching the boys so much, makes me move back north of the Border
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So you'll have to last for two years I was in a dark place a few years back, really hope you get up and out. And the weed always helped me brighten up a bit
Anyway - tripel post. So what, got Holla at ma bois
I was in a dark place a few years back, really hope you get up and out. And the weed always helped me brighten up a bit Anyway - tripel post. So what, got Holla at ma bois
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Nap time. Had to yell at the little bastard downstairs to stop yelling. They kept at it I told them stop or I'm calling the police they are disturbing the peace. They stopped.
I want to strangle the idiot who lives upstairs. Him and his kid run around like it's a playground. I'm going to have a word with his punk ass again I guess the last time I didn't intimidate him enough...
I want to strangle the idiot who lives upstairs. Him and his kid run around like it's a playground. I'm going to have a word with his punk ass again I guess the last time I didn't intimidate him enough...
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Ying yang twins Badd https://youtu.be/d_M5ZVxgULQ
Bud that snapped of the chunky hoa bac. Minty lemon freshness...
Joint in a clear paper.
I'm adding perlite to stretch my coco this time. Plus it will aerate it a bit. I liked the mix before but been lazy this year. Well lazy my first run after. I smoked the last of my first crop in this place a couple days after I fell off the retaining wall. I should have made someone else clear the trees for the fence work but I had to do it... Fuck me.
At least I'm still walking and moving alright.
I love the xd. Even way early it's excellent quality. Higher than anything I'd find local with the exception of the pink my buddy sells. He used to slang a really fuelly og that was pretty racy, but now with all the pink pumping out of bc it's around here everywhere. When it first came to town we thought a couple of the local gangs set up big, and there was a 2000 plant bust o full of pink that went dow here but it didn't put a dent, actually took the wack pink off the local market.
The seedlings are killing it. Transplants today. Need more pot poppers and containers. Need to count what I have and then go from there.
I'll be switching to cannas bags of coco no more bricks after my last 3. Either do that for a bit or I'm switching to cannas COGr system. A totally dope coco system I'll eventually get to and probably run until I die from the looks of it, though I'm loving the simple ab set system...
