Sorry to bump an OLD thread, but just wanna say thanks for inspiring me with all your reassuring posts. I'm a hermit by nature & always have been. I'm in my 30s now & constantly feel like I'm "wasting" my life by spending so much time indoors/alone, but there's nothing wrong with doing what you love. Not everyone is an extroverted sensation-seeker and that's okay. But I also know what depression/crippling anxiety feel like, so I can identify with the OP too. Can't become a slave to your growing hobby.
I look forward to my golden years when weed is the only substance I use & I have my own sun room, patio, balcony and/or farm plot to grow it on. Right now I'm restricted to a Solo cup in a closet, lol.