I Am Needing Major Prayers Right Now

[I Used To Grow]

man..I am on some next level shit right here man...

things are changing for me at a very rapid pace here..

Im not used to things spiraling downward so damn fast at all..

I know it will be a great year all in all ..but man..what a rough start for some crazy hick from the mountains man...

I did not see this coming at all...well, actually I did..but I didn't want to admit the feelings I had the last time I saw my childhood friends...we were all very depressed when I saw them in 2002...all we did the whole time I was there was sit in front of the boob tube and watch movies, get piss drunk, smoke a ton of herb, get our freak on with the ladies..and then pass out every night I was there for 2 weeks straight...man..this sucks..

I'm reverting back into my old Scorpio self where I was self destructive, tempermental..loud mouthed and obnoxicous..wtf man? I was on a good path there for a minute

 

[pieceofmyheart]

You need some sleep sweetie.......

 

[Guest]

Whats the deal man, thats sounds great to me, but as a fellow scorpio I know what you mean, you want something meaningful out of life, am I right?

 

[est1977]

Im also a Scorpio and i'll be praying for you but we all get into our depressed mode at some point just got over mine stay strong

 

[green_grow]

i dont pray, but i'll send some good wishes your way . breathe deep and have a happy friday !

 

[Ronley]

You need some sleep sweetie.......

I agree.
and Feel better, and what ever it is will pass.

What colour lighter do you want.- They come in all shades?

 

[Guest]

Is that a gerbil next to your keyboard,lol Is this Richard Geere? for real

 

[I Used To Grow]

lmao..no dude..im just some backwoods hick here in CO trying to make my dreams come true man..it's f'n hard dude...I am on meds..just 5 mg of abilify twice a week..it's good feeling that stuff when I get "Pnoid" and stressed..shiz man..

My bestest buddy in the whole world is gettting a divorce right now..it's so f'n ugly man..mud slinging..slander...backstabbing..god I hate women sometimes...I love em to death..but when they bring out the drama like this..that's when I pack my bags and hit the road..I don't have time for drama right now..one of my best buds from AZ blew his head off a few weeks ago with a shottie..i'm so depressed man..i'm bawling my eyes out as we speak..listening to "Snow" by RHCP..feel a little better now..

 

[I Used To Grow]

/the more i see the less I know the more i'd like to let it go...

 

[Guest]

Dude don't be sayin shit like that, life will get better man. Its not your fault about what your friend did, he decided thats what he felt like he needed to do at that moment but if he wouldn't have he would have realized later in life that he loves living even though theres rough patches along the way. Don't dwell on what happend, death is not something that is easily coped with I know man, I've had a girl I was sleeping with kill herself three hours after I left her house, I admit I wanted to die at that moment but offing yourself only causes more tragedy. I've lost friends in carwrecks two at the same time, its never easy but you have to pick up the pieces and do what makes you happy. Take a vacation or something, try to get past it but don't forget it.

 

[TrichomusCaesar]

Sweet mother of christ.....death is never the way to go, man. Life is so precious, and in the big scheme of things, a persons full life is still too short.

A time will come when this is just a distance memory.Stay strong and all will be alright. There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

I have really been taking in easy on the bud...but I'm hitting up a good load of vapes for ya, bro.

Peace

 

[Lofty]

i've been reading yr posts for a while and i know yr in a bad place rite now, my best mate put a hose pipe in his exhaust wen he was 26, hardest time of my life. jusr remeber yr mates up there watching, he doesnt wat u to do anything drastic, if he had the choice to live that moment again he'd still b here.

show him respect and keep his memory but live life as he'd want u to, do all the things he wud have wanted.

as u've learned taking a 1st class ticket out of here hurts everybody else.

u'd better still b posting yr fellings tomorrow and the next and so on, we're all here for u, u've got a 24/7 family dont let us down.

do wat u've got to but get yr head sorted.

thinking of u IUTG

 

[I Used To Grow]

nice man..very nice..

 

[Vash]

There's not a one of us here that doesn't have SOMETHING going on. You got to learn how to COPE with the lows as much as you RIDE the highs. Life is just not an even keel. There's ups and downs. One thing I do know, depression is like a cancer. That shit will eat you up if you let it. Keep your head up. It'll definitely get better. You just got to wade through it. You got "family" here. Listen to them.

 

[James Morrison]

Hey there buddy

Whatever you are going through, for one, it can allways get worse,

life is about experiences and learning to deal with them, however good or bad, but even more importantly, what you learn and use from them, how you let those experiences and trials shape your character into something positve and productive instead of something negative and destructive...

Life also is about choices brother. You have a choice to be a victim of the cards dealt to you and fold like your friend did. Or you can play those cards THE BEST YOU CAN! WITH ALL YOU AARE MADE OF!!!!

You have to stay positve man, keep your head up...its funny how life works sometimes. My best friend was killed right in front of me, he was 18 years old... without that inncident happening, I would have never met my wife, and we would never have been able to share our amazing beautiful children with the world.

You have a choice, your friend had a choice, my friend didnt...

I seriously am praying for you brother. I know its hard and confusing now, but trust that path in front of you, it will lead somewhere amazing but the trials on your path will knock ya off course, you will sometimes get lost, dont be swayed to the left or the right, ...and dont forget, only look behind when its goona help you move forward!!!

 

[pieceofmyheart]

You won't find peace in a bottle, with drugs or anything else. peace comes from within you.....find it hun.

 

[Guest]

Scorpio, symbolized by the Scorpion, is a Fixed Water sign. Ruled by Mars (and Pluto), Scorpio is intense, strong-willed, passionate and filled with desire. They are deep, penetrating, complex, mysterious, secretive – “still waters run deep” (Fixed Water). Scorpios love to probe beneath the surface and uncover what is hidden. They are clever, perceptive and almost psychic in their intuitiveness. They are just as emotional as the other Water signs, but their emotions are more repressed – kept under cover, hidden. Consistent with their Fixed energy, Scorpios are stubborn and determined. They can be ruthless if hurt and don’t easily forgive.

How true that is

 

[Fonzie]

man..I am on some next level shit right here man...

things are changing for me at a very rapid pace here..

Im not used to things spiraling downward so damn fast at all..


I'm reverting back into my old Scorpio self where I was self destructive, tempermental..loud mouthed and obnoxicous..wtf man? I was on a good path there for a minute

I was on a good path there for a minute,,,,



hmmmmmm,,,,

if shit starts fuckin up - go back to what was working last. You yourself say "I was on a good path" "I'm reverting" "It's going down hill"

Clean your act up, fix what's broken and don't feel guilty for what you can't change.

98% of everything you have posted recently has kindly been deleated - too bad, you need to see what a cry baby you have been and how shabbly you have treated anybody you could swing at.
No skin off my nose. But just so ya know,,, you have been really shitty to some people that, #1 you asked for help and #2 really seem to care about your health and welfare. (for reasons that I can't understand)
Pull your head ot of your butt, grab the handlebars and peddle dammit. It IS YOUR JOB, ya know?

Or crawl off in a dark corner and let that little pipe talk to ya some more.

May the powers of good be with you and give your strength.

 

[pieceofmyheart]

Great post Fonzie, I am worried about him, but everything you said is spot on.

 

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

Hey man, everybody gets depressed sometimes...Its something that we all have to deal with one time or another....That is what makes us stronger to endure even worse things in life...If you cant deal with what your going through now...how do you expect to get through something even worse later in life....I totally agree with Fonzie....Dont come here and cry about all the bad things in your life...Tell us some good things that is going for you...And i know there is something good...There always is..Im sorry about your friend..I had a friend do the same thing...only with a 380. Hand gun...Its not very pleasant to go through, I know.....But as the days go on things will start looking up for ya...Like other people has said...You have 24/7 Family right here..and we are all glad to help you...Just dont put out all the negatives...This is a place for happniess..not anger..or depression....So get your ass back into gear...chin up and walk proudly for the things in life you already have...Your the only one that can truly help your self..nobody else can...So its all up to you bud....PEACE.....