if i get one day rest and no need to do anything,i'd like enjoy a day with some pot and bike,or after work,nothing to do,find a movie not watch,but give me something to observe to find how the world work(it's crap,but at that i really enjoy i find something)。but i konw some people somke when they work,even the work need lots of social contact。how did you that?what you smoke?i tried but failed,the eyes,photophoby,it's feel really bad,and maybe you have to communicat with some people you don't like,you know what trick they are playing,when i'm sober,i can stand it with my logos,but when i'm high,fuck off,get away from my sight...
when i'm sober,i know what is important,like work,money ,relation ship。but when i'm high,i don't give any fuck about them,when i'm high,i jealousy of monk,my value become hippie but with some rage。i want to do some ascetic practices。i hate the life i pretend and other around me who pretend,like they don't care,i mean they say they care,but they don't,they won't do what they want,they can‘t honest to them self,and they don't want to be responsible for them self,just like what i do。so i can't stand these,i know it's overexert,it's not peace,but i do so...
i love weed,it's show me who i am。and teach me to feel my body,teach me how to enjoy by give up or do nothing,it teach me to relax...but i can't do it during work,i know it's my problem,cause there are no need to act,play role on my daily life,i can take that rage guy to my work,it's more real,but i'm not that brave,like i'm afrid of i become who i want to be means i will be crazy...though i ammire them,the crazy guys,but i'm not get ready...
when i'm sober,i know what is important,like work,money ,relation ship。but when i'm high,i don't give any fuck about them,when i'm high,i jealousy of monk,my value become hippie but with some rage。i want to do some ascetic practices。i hate the life i pretend and other around me who pretend,like they don't care,i mean they say they care,but they don't,they won't do what they want,they can‘t honest to them self,and they don't want to be responsible for them self,just like what i do。so i can't stand these,i know it's overexert,it's not peace,but i do so...
i love weed,it's show me who i am。and teach me to feel my body,teach me how to enjoy by give up or do nothing,it teach me to relax...but i can't do it during work,i know it's my problem,cause there are no need to act,play role on my daily life,i can take that rage guy to my work,it's more real,but i'm not that brave,like i'm afrid of i become who i want to be means i will be crazy...though i ammire them,the crazy guys,but i'm not get ready...