CannaZen
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Hello everyone
Before i get down into it, i would like to introduce myself a little as to better elaborate my situation pertaining to your suggestions, i hope it is not too long for you you all to read.
It is much appreciated everyone!
Before i get down into it, i would like to introduce myself a little as to better elaborate my situation pertaining to your suggestions, i hope it is not too long for you you all to read.
Moving on! I think what i need is something both stimulating and sedating BUT subtle, i believe this would help combat the anxiety and motivational/focus problems. however i need to be functional enough for activities like driving or working. I'm looking into breeding landraces for something that may work best for me as they may be unique, medicinal and not as potent (lending to more subtle effects perhaps). I've started with some SoA seeds for now but i was hoping to hear from ICMAG on good seed suggestions landrace or not that i could look into?I believe i have a mild form of autism, specifically a form of aspergers. Its difficult to describe exactly how this effects my life as from my point of view i am much like anybody else.. but I’ve had difficulties functioning in society, especially regarding social interactions and i am sure these problems will continue for some time. I believe it has been due to my childhood but it could also be that it was the culprit of my childhood. I have heard of a study showing a good percentage of cannabis users that have not had a father figure in their early life, i feel this definitely holds true for me. I tend to make a lot of mistakes without realizing it until later, this makes me feel very anxious and typically it is hard for me to feel that everything is going to be OK in situations like social interaction, it makes it very hard for me to focus on the moment and instead i'm in more of an abstract perspective, over-analyzing everything which makes it hard for me to focus on what is important. Its also hard for me to hold interest (both short term and some long term) in what i am doing or who i am talking to. Due to this and my life situation, I’ve felt empty and depressed for a long time now. I may look into getting a diagnosis at some point, for now i hold off on that. I'm planning to look into tai chi or yoga and some other holistic/ayurvedic medicines.
It is much appreciated everyone!