Family Tragedy

[HolyWalrus]

There has recently been a family tragedy that has left everyone, including me and my brother especially heart broken.

My mom decided to take her life at age 50, she was depressed for many years, and could never get past it. She was an artist, a computer graphics lighting prodigy, and we are all extremely sad.

I was just thinking, it'd be a great thing if the growers on the forums planted something in her honor.

This is hard for me to write, as you would expect it is... We're getting by, though.

She's at peace, finally, though, and she made it clear she didn't leave in anger. She died painlessly as well, I really don't want to go into details but if you must know how you can ask me via pm. This happened about three weeks ago, we are all still very shaken from this.

But please if you can plant something in her honor, do. I apologize for saddening you all with this news, but she was always fascinated by plants, and this seemed like a good thing to do.

 

[ureapwhatusow]

I can put something in the ground in memory of your mom

ill try to get a picture after I plant it

as tough as it is, your not alone, her pain was her's and now shes past so let the memory of her joy remain

 

[ocean99]

Damn man, that's some truly disheartening news. I wish you and your family the best.

 

[HolyWalrus]

Thanks a ton, ureap. It means a lot :].

Edit: And you too ocean, thanks.

 

[MOneYMiKe]

im sorry to hear this.......may she be no longer in pain....

 

[Smiler]

Sorry for your news, hope that in time you can all find peace.

Just planted an SLH, will think of your family while she grows.

Try and be positive.

 

[HolyWalrus]

Thanks guys . We're all getting through it, and trying to remember the happy times. Thank you to everyone who's going to plant in her honor, she would be very happy.

 

[HolyWalrus]

That's a great plant for this, smiler. My mom loved lemons, she ate em all the time :]

 

[I N Hail]

O man Walrus my heart goes out to you and your fam.

Depression is a hard row to hoe my friend.It is a constant battle of life
and very hard to keep the upper hand.

Sending Love/karma to ya Bro

PeaceINH

 

[HolyWalrus]

Thanks, everybody. I'm feeling a lot better since this morning when I posted this, and trying to be optimistic. She wrote really nice notes to everyone, and thinking about them made me a little happier.

I have been depressed basically my whole life, but not in the extreme.. Maybe this experience will have a positive outcome, maybe it'll make me a little more on the brighter side of life.

By the way, for those of you planting for her, her name was Kathy White, so you know what to name your flower in your plant journal. once again thanks everyone for the support

 

[420patient.com]

HEy Holywalrus I am really sorry to you are going through this man.

We are all here for you man.

She is with lots of family that have been waiting for her.

My mothers mom just passed not long ago and she says she has dreams of her Mom and Grandma together talking and making food together. happy and loving each other.

I had a dream I was sitting with my Grandmother all the elders at a family gathering....

All is better for her now. She is whole again. Much love to you brother...

Hugs from Your us over here

I will pull out something to sprout and take photos of it right now. let me sort through my box....I got some nice flowers that bloom during spring every year...

Your Friend, B and the rest of the MSL crew!

 

[HolyWalrus]

It's great that you guys really care, most of the people on the internet either ignore or insult. I have had dreams too, where I've talked with her, but only one or two and I can't recall much from them.

Maybe we should make our own strain crossing White Widow or maybe White Dwarf with something and call it Kathy White.. But I don't know how to do things like that, it'd be up to you guys.

On my first grow, which might be in about two years, or maybe even six years in the future, I'm going to start on auto White Dwarf. Gonna dedicate it to mom, hopefully her spirit will make it grow big :]
You guys are really helping me a lot, thank you all :].

 

[Lilly456]

Well I know where you're at.My old man killed himself last year and only now a year later I realize...I was gonna call that guy..My best to ya', it'll make a grown man cry, no doubt.Best I can do is cut and dry a big old hazy cola for ya' and chuck it on the backyard firepit.Regardless, I know what you're thinking.

 

[HolyWalrus]

I'm sorry about your pop, Lilly. Smoke that hazy cola good, man

 

[Greyskull]

hope youand yours get thru the tough times

 

[RAGGA MON]

sorry to hear....wishing you and your fam a long life.

 

[Miss Blunted]

I'll draw a heart on the stake of one of my Reclining Buddhas and dedicate her to your Mom and all the victims of depression whose families have suffered.

 

[BurmeseDragon]

Ya I wonder about people on medication and it's hard to change that attachment, we are delicate plants being people that related. I was at the outreach, a place to get money and hearing people tap. It's hard to really heal this MK ULTRA, people figure things out off of the mean lab. It's the hardest with the traditions forced from very close populations. Spirits holding onto that, it's not easy to make decisions for yourself. It seems to take a bite to hold onto deeply, something to obsess over and be paranoid about for guidance. People taught to not care on drugs so people taking care of them, don't have to. It didn't work, it's still cause and effect science. Not a nice story, still healing from my suicide. It's just a hard hurt on others, every time and it gets easier but we do attach to those that hurt us the most. Finding our own dimension is not so easy, DMT doesn't always produce a fair vision and that is a real personal security issue for me and you! We resist and we do that to have a way, it's not nice hearing people that drugged up say we can't do something but it's a fair shock. I have met a lot of tragedy and when people hate that person about that it burns me deeply. I met a girl who's mom did that from Bi-polar life, being a vision seeker with paranoia. It's not good to mix drugs with a pride, but we keep pride for a prayer so when things go wrong....and work so that doesn't get to huge! It's hard to really calm people down so spun out and still doing illegal deeds.

Obviously this is a UN site, so it's easy to talk about fire!

 

[HolyWalrus]

Burm I got really lost in your post, to tell you the truth I had no idea what you were talkin' about >_>.. When did we start talking about DMT?

Not trying to insult you, I just got lost, sorry.

But thanks for posting, and thank you, Miss Blunted I hope she grows big.

 

[Solidopc]

Shit, that tripped me out man, made me feel like i was on acid. Kind of post you'd write on it, lol. Well funny if you made it up, even funnier if you didn't, lmao. Respect.

Ya I wonder about people on medication and it's hard to change that attachment, we are delicate plants being people that related. I was at the outreach, a place to get money and hearing people tap. It's hard to really heal this MK ULTRA, people figure things out off of the mean lab. It's the hardest with the traditions forced from very close populations. Spirits holding onto that, it's not easy to make decisions for yourself. It seems to take a bite to hold onto deeply, something to obsess over and be paranoid about for guidance. People taught to not care on drugs so people taking care of them, don't have to. It didn't work, it's still cause and effect science. Not a nice story, still healing from my suicide. It's just a hard hurt on others, every time and it gets easier but we do attach to those that hurt us the most. Finding our own dimension is not so easy, DMT doesn't always produce a fair vision and that is a real personal security issue for me and you! We resist and we do that to have a way, it's not nice hearing people that drugged up say we can't do something but it's a fair shock. I have met a lot of tragedy and when people hate that person about that it burns me deeply. I met a girl who's mom did that from Bi-polar life, being a vision seeker with paranoia. It's not good to mix drugs with a pride, but we keep pride for a prayer so when things go wrong....and work so that doesn't get to huge! It's hard to really calm people down so spun out and still doing illegal deeds.

Obviously this is a UN site, so it's easy to talk about fire!