Another Fucked Up Day

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

Well hey icers..I dont mean to come here and dump you all, but the last couple days has been pretty fucked up, I have just recently lost a really good friend of mine to a fatal car accident. He was more than a friend he was my all time best smoking buddy...It is some fucked up shit when death accures..especially when you know that person..I just dont know how to deal with this...Just imagine someone you hang out with every day. You and this person are like family bothers or sisters so to say. I dont know yall...I didnt mean to irratate anyone, just had to get some shit off of my chest to help me deal with it I guess..I had to talk to some one.. I hope you guys & gals dont mind me sharing this with you...

 

[Mrs.Babba]

Pedro...no, we are glad you can dump on us!....its so hard to lose someone you love, just remember they are in a wonderful place and feeling nothing but joy and bliss, you are one ones hurting cuz you miss them so much but each day gets a little bit easier
thanks for sharing your pain, its not easy.

 

[mrwags]

Pedro you be family here at ICM man. Words CANNOT express what you are feeling right now but I bet your buddy would want you to keep on keeping on no matter what. He will forever be in your heart and that my friend is more than most. Shoot me a pm if ya ever need it.



Wish Ya The Best

Mr.Wags

 

[Safari]

I feel for you man, and I have been there. I lost my best friend in high school to a car accident, and my Dad is living the last of his days to due terminal cancer. Hang in there. Time makes everything better.

 

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

Thanks mrwags..you have no idea how much that means to me...I know he will be forever in my heart..its just really messed up...its almost like a really vivid dream..but i know im awake....Im glad you said "I bet your buddy would want you to keep on keeping on no matter what" cuzz I know that is so true...Thanx

 

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

Hey Safari,That is what I keep telling my self. I just want to get through theese next couple days and then "Tim makes everything better." I apreciate the kind words...

 

[mrwags]

Pedro many many many years ago I got a call from my girlfriend,she was frantic and sobbing and kept screaming that she could not take it anymore. I then heard the clicling sound of the shoutgun load and then the blast and last but not least the thud of her body. Yeah man I fell ya hard. Life at times SUCKS but it will ONLY suck for as long as YOU let it suck. Right now you are full of questions with very little answers. Knowing it was an accident will make it that much easier, but I bet your buddy is looking down right now saying "remember the good times and to hell with the bad, smoke one for me" as the wise Mrs B has already said he is in a better place. I myself just twisted a big fat ECSD doobie. I'm gonna smoke half of it and leave the rest for him.


God Speed


Mr.Wags

 

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

Mrs.Babba, thanx..I am most certainly he is feeling nothing but joy and bliss...He is probably smoking some of the finest herb..I Hope.. I can understand what you mean about me hurting because im the missing him....Im glad you made me feel more at home here than acutally be in my home...appreciate it very much..

 

[Pedro_De_Pacas]

I am...so full of questions..I dont understand..mrwags that had to be so hard for you..I mean being on the phone at the time that she did that..that would seriously fuck with me for a life time...but i know that time will make everything better and look back on the good times and not the bad ones. I hope this is how you got through your time of grieving..cuzz thats the only thing that is keeping me going...Time be of all time heeler..

 

[Guest]

Hey Pedro,

Sorry to hear about your friend..

Light a candle for him. Close your eyes, and say good bye to him for now. Wish him well.

Death can leave us angry, sometimes with no one in particular to blame. The grief sweeping over us comes and goes..

Let him know how much he meant to you. Tell the air, the sky. And cry for your loss.

Tears are like rain for the garden of the soul sometimes.

moose eater